01 , dulu tanggal pertama di awal bulan memang sangat ku nanti ..
Sekarang di awal tahun , hari ini aku membenci tanggal ini ..
Benar² aku ingin melepaskan semuanya ..
Tapi rasanya , sakit sekali 😭
Memang itu sudah menjadi pilihanmu , mau tak mau .
Walaupun rasanya menyesekan , sesuatu itu sangat mengganjal di hati .
Sakit sekali , ya sakit sekali .
Bernafas pun tak bisa rasanya .
Benar , harusnya aku lebih mempercayai .
"If there loved you , there never be another else , and the choice is always you .
There is no doubt for this , go you will take your risk . And the hurt more than ever you think"
And ..
Fuck you right , its hurt more than I can handle this
Please help me to erase this :"
I was dying
I think my soul was die
But my body still alive
Stop hug me tight
Stop to say you afraid to lose me
Stop saying you want live with me
Stop saying you love me so much
Its really hurt ..
Its really hurt ..
This so fuckin hurt ..
I just lose my everything's ..
But in my lil heart i hear something's like as long as her happy its okay ..
But the reality its so hurt ..
I want to cry , but I already
No the real what I need is I found peace in my heart .
I want to be fine :(
I'm tired :(
I'm really want someone who loves me
I'm really want someone who afraid to lose me .
I'm just the one who feel I afraid lose someone .
I think i was ready for this
But the tears can't lie
This heart still hurt
The pain more than I can handle
But its okay
Maybe I just need a time
Tak apa , aku kuat ..
Aku yakin aku bisa melewati semua ini ..
Sorry for everything's .
Aku tak akan menggangu mu kembali .
Kalau saja dulu kau tak pernah mencintaiku :) .
Rasanya aku ingin mati sejenak , sampai perasaanku baik kembali .
-Dop
