Male Saiyan reader x Female Goku

Chapter 7

~Warning This is story contains some Depression, Self harm, self hate, Blood etc.~

Now, on with the chapter....

~(Y/N)'S P.O.V~

It's Been 4 days since the So called, "Tournament Of Power" was announced. The rules were that 10 participants from each universe were, allow to fight in the tournament. No weapons, No flying and No killing. The Setting was at the Null Void; along with one more rule. If all fights from a universe was eliminated, then their universe will be erased. Expect the Angles.

You were shocked at the rules, and it caused you to self inflict more harsher. Mainly because, everyone in the universe was counting on you. But due to past experiences, you were disconfident to yourself and your abilities.It also gained you two disorders, MDD and Anorexia. You are still emtionless, It's just that PSTD and MDD and Emotionless state go together like oil and water. But you hid that from Goki and the Z-fighters, only Whis was the one who still knows. While that was happening, you and Goki were close but had the emotionless face and increased PTSD. Goki, Vegeta and Gohan were Training with you, at a place called, "The GodVoid" A place where time stops completely, you don't age at all, and it's grants infinite food.

(Also Note the fact that, since you've nearly die so many time via abuse or self infliction. Your Zenkai boost, has increased your power a lot.)

Goki finally got her PSSB and Kaioken combination down, while Vegeta managed to Perfect his SSBE transformation. Also Gohan was able to combine his Potential Unleashed and SSB.

~Present Day at the Son's resident~

You woke with tears and Sweat again; plus your MDD was so noticeable. But luckily, Goki was still asleep with her hugging you in her underclothes. You got out of bed, and went to the bathroom. The results, were so horrible and helpless. You couldn't stop thinking about, how you'll fail to win the Tournament because you were weak and pathetic. You silently cried, as you then began to slit yourself again. These Nightmares and Disorder were, just making you so weak. You often wondered if, Goki or Vegeta will break you more if they saw this. You kept crying, as you then dropped on the ground with blood on you. The images were appearing in your brain....

"Go away you weakling, you're too weak to fight in the tournament."

"How very pathetic of you, trying to represent our Saiyan race."

"Leave, you're no good to save our universe."

"We don't need a weakling like you to bring us down to the other world"

"Why is a Saiyan like you, going to save our universe. You're just a stupid useless muted Freak"

"If you lose this tournament, we'll kill you away from existence."

"We wish we never helped you, get strong as a god."

"I'm highly disappointed in your ability. For that, I will take away your god ki."

"Hahahahahahaha"

You believe it was all true, and it began breaking your heart so badly. You went on for an hour, until you quickly cleaned away the blood and tears; along with your wounds and knife. You went back in bed with Goki, as you waited for her to wake up.

~30 minutes later Goki's P.O.V~

I opened my eyes, to see him again. He's in front of me, so close with his lips brushing off mine. I flushed hard.....

Me:"Morning (Y/N)." I said, as my lips were shaking.

He looked at me with those emotionless dull (E/C) eyes again, why is he like that? Why does he seems so, hard and disrespectful of himself? I just.... I just want him, to see him smiling.