I was relieved that the day was almost over. I got into a giant t-shirt and took off my pants leaving me in my underwear. I ordered some pizza and to drown the pain, I got some ice cream and a bottle of tequila out of my dad's cabinet. I waited for the pizza guy. In about 25 minutes, my order was here. "At least I have food left. Its the only thing that won't hurt me."
Don't think I usually get drunk to drown my pain. It helps in extreme cases like these. I had no one in my life who cared really. I lost all my respect. I lost importance. I lost everything. The futher I went down, the further my depression got. There was no hope anymore. I lost faith in the world. I now knew that there was no way to make everything okay.
I cried and cried for hours. When I thought the sadness passed, it barely began. Eventually, I passed out from all the crying. I'm guessing when my dad came home, he wasnt too drunk. He probably thought I was asleep and carried me to my bed. Lucky for me, he didnt see the bottle of tequila on the couch.
On the next morning, it was saturday. I went in the kitchen and saw my dad sitting there. He had made breakfast and coffee. He was reading a newspaper until he saw me walk in. "Morning sunshine. Do you know what time it is?" I shook my head no. "I saw you asleep on the couch and I decided to take you to your bed." I responded, "Thanks. Are you going to work? " He shook his head no and asked "Are you doing anything today?" I simply said no. He offered to spend the day together. I agreed. He's the only person who cares, well a little, but still. I had him.
We went to the park. We walked around for a while and talked about the most irritating subject ever. My "mom." Honestly, I didn't want to talk about her. But I had to be honest, I told him I hate her. After all she did. She abandoned me in the cold weather. To freeze to death. He confessed to me that he didnt think she would be possible of leaving me like that. The most inhumane way possible. He also told me that for years, one of my mom's brothers, has tried to contact me. To be honest, I dont feel like contacting him.
After the park, we went to the mall. We walked into Hot Topic. We ended up getting some gages, a few sweaters, and a lot of band shirts. We took a couple pictures. It was literally a day we wouldn't forget. It was the first time that everything felt like it was going to be okay. That it was just me and daddy against the world.
