I Still Love You

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My alarm goes off. Its august, 29, 2017 which means that it is my birthday. But it's also the first day of school. I go to the bathroom feeling sick to my stomach and with a huge headache. I hate the first day of school, i get new classmates and everything changes. I have autism so things like this are really hard for me. I put on my outfit that i have already picked out the night before. I'm wearing my harry potter shirt, a skirt and a choker. I have to wear a skirt every single day because i go to a christian school. So far it hasn't bothered me that much that i go to a very strict christian school, but it's getting more annoying every day. 

I'm in the bus with my headphones in listening to Demi Lovato's new song 'instruction'. I don't actually like the song but i secretly have a crush on Demi. We're finally at school and everyone's getting the schedule that they need and get send to they're classes. I'm sitting all alone, but i notice some people talking to each other so that probably means that they already know each other. I already know some people here from my sophmore year, but i'm not really friends with them. I see one girl in front of me with blonde straight hair, she looks similar to me but i have more curly hair. 

It's lunch and i'm sitting next to the blonde girl that i noticed earlier. She's very nice to me and is asking me about school and stuff. Now she is introducing me to some of her friends, i don't like them a lot. I can notice that she kind of hangs out with richer girls. This probably means that she might be rich too. That makes me nervous. I live with my father, mother, brother and two sisters. We don't have a ton of money. What if she's gonna look down on me?

I'm finally home. I walk into my room and start crying immediatly. This day was horrible, nothing went wrong but all the changes are just too much stress. It's still my birthday so i wipe away my tears and go downstairs and see that my mom has decorated the living room. She gives me my present, it's a justin bieber sweater. I'm not a big fan or anything but i just love the sweater. We eat cake and after a few hours of pretending to be happy i can finally go to bed. I hope that the rest of the year will be better because only the thought of school gives me a stomach ache.