I looked around the white room. Why did I do it? My eyes met hers. I looked down at my lap, continuing to play with my hands.
"This is your last meeting until you go. Is there anything you want to say?" She asked. I nodded as a tear slipped down my face.
"What if Niall hates me? What if he never forgives me for what I did to myself? I don't even forgive myself. I ruined his image. He must hate me. I don't know why I did it. I just wished I didn't." I told her. I looked down at my arm, a constant reminder of the past I wanted to erase.
"This is your chance to completley ditch your past. You need to just focus on your future and what that will bring. Niall would be lucky to be part of your future, just remeber that okay?" She said. I nodded.
"Thank you. I can't say I'm gonna miss this place but I will miss you." I told her. She smiled.
"Our time is up Miss Malik. I hope not to see you later." She said. I smiled and got up out of my chair. I walked down the hall, past the office, past the waiting room, past the sitting room, past the game room, past some bedrooms, to the door of my room. I picked up my bags that were waiting outside my door and walked to the office.
"Is it time Charlie?" Amanda, the main office person asked. She knows all of the patients.
"Yes it is." I said excitedly.
"Charlie! Charlie Malik! Wait!" I heard someone yelling. I laughed as I saw Rose running to me, pulling me into a huge hug.
"Oh Rose..." I said.
"I'm gonna get out really soon then we're gonna move in together and we're gonna go on double dates. You with Niall me with um... Your brother!" She said.
"Ew. Rose!" I said. She threw her head back in laughter.
"Whats so bad about that?" Someone asked from behind me. I turned around to see Zayn. I ran and pulled him into a huge hug. I missed him so much. I finally pulled away to see Rose standing there smiling awkwardly.
"Zayn this is Rose. One of my only friends here. Rose this is Zayn, my brother." I told her.
"Nice to meet you." Zayn said.
"You too. I would hug you because I love you and the rest of the boys but I'm not really allowed past that line." Rose said pointing to the big red line painted on the floor with two machines next to it that allerted secutrity if anyone crossed the line. Zayn crossed the line and gave Rose a huge hug.
"I hope to see you soon." Zayn said. Rose beamed with happiness.
"You too! I hope to see you soon too!" She said.
"Bye Rose. Call me when you get out of here." I told her. She nodded, still beaming. I walked out with Zayn to his car. I had only seen this parking lot for real once before. When I was checking in.
"I need to stop at the studio for a minute and you can say hi to the boys but then I have the rest of the day off. What do you want to do?" Zayn asked.
"I need new clothes. And um I don't know. To be honest Zayn I'm scared everyone is going to hate me." I told him. He started the car and drove out of the parking lot.
"Hate you? Why would someone hate you? Everyone loves you. Everyone is so worried about you." Zayn said stopping the car at a stop light.
"Why would someone not hate me? I did something careless to myself and got everyone all riled up." I said. Zayn scoffed at me, rolling his eyes. He handed me his phone.
"Check my Twitter." He told me. I turned his phone and tried entering his passcode.
"You changed you passcode thingy." I told him. I don't know why, but that made me feel hurt.
