One Blind Lie (Zayn Malik Fanfiction) (On Hold probably forever)

10: Breath

l.o.l

Life's great guys.

Just sitting in the hospital, once again crying my heart out and desperately waiting with the four boys of One Direction, Liam, Niall, Harry, and Louis.

Your Like 'Four? There's five.'

I know that. But right now there might not be a fifth..

Oh I didn't mention what happened? Well after I broke down crying, I heard no response right?

So um.. Zayn's unconisous, yes he's still breathing. I think.. I mean, I know. He got shot. Right in the stomach. 

STOP I KNOW IT'S ALL MY FAULT. STUPID LYING. STUPID BLIND. STUPID UNKNOWN.

The boys are sitting all worried and I'm bawling, because it's all my fault I'm going to get everyone killed, this shouldn't be happening, why lord. oh why? 

"Kara. it's ok." Liam said as he patted my back

"No its not." I mumble. 

"It's not like its your fault." Liam adds  trying to help me feel better.

But it didn't help me feel better. I felt worse.

I needed to just stab myself in the gut and rot and die, and leave my lies hidden forever.

I cried harder.

"Great Liam look what you did." Niall said while sniffling.

Liam shrugs  his shoulders and gave me a quick hug.

"I'll be right back." I said as I ran to the washroom leaving the boys.

I looked into the mirror I looked disgusting.

From; Unknown

'Don't look into the mirror to long, lies will eat you up.' 

I turned away and replied,

From; Me

'Shut up Candice, or Candice's friend whoever the hell you are.'

I heard sudden footsteps inside one of the stalls and I ran out of the bathroom, and then casually walked back to the waiting room as if nothing happened. Even though something did happen fears and lies got the best of me.. 

Your probaby sick of hearing depresion stories about me.

Your thinking, 'when is something positive going to show up?' Well currently nothing will..

"Are are you ok love?" Harry asks me as my phone vibrated. 

I nodded my head and then took a quick glance at my phone so the boys wouldn't think I could see. 

From; Unknown

'Ah. So it was you in the bathroom stall tearing up.. We still got together and read your diary. lololol.' 

One simple life. To much drama. No more tears came out of me. I couldn't cry anymore I've been crying for basically my whole life. Starting since I was young. Nobody loved me, I was hated by my family and friends. I turned blind so everybody could change only my family did everybody still laughed and stared. Same shit different day, I went through this until I turned 18. I met Zayn. I felt loved. But now everything is breaking apart. I might have just gotten one of the hottest boybands in the world loose a member. And it would be all my fault. 

One Direction would be torn apart, and it would be all my fault. I couldn't go back in time. I couldn't change anything. I couldn't, I couldn't stop unknown I couldn't stop my lies. Aiden's hurt, I'm hurt, now Zayn's worse then hurt.