I dont know where it all well went wrong i want to find it all out.
I want to know why hes not talking to me.
Why we ended up so bad.
When we first met it was all so dreamy.
Then idk why suddenly left me behind saying he's not interested.
I respect his decision but i cant deny that i m stuck with him
I cant forget or let it go his existence
I feel so dumb sometimes
For not able to acknowledge what's going on.
Im so sad tbh
Because his not giving attention to me
Makes me so insecure
Because it is doing bad thing for my ego.
I felt it's all good and shiny
Untill now when im suffocating because of his absence
My love life is nowhere near to what i had thought beforr coming in one.
But now it's totally opposite
We hardly talk
It's been so many years
We still havent talked properly
I want to change myself
Just because of his ignorance
Im so dependent you see?
I want to be me.
And be happy with myself.
But this relationship has made me feel lost
And lost far away.
I want to leave him for my good
But im stuck
:(
God please help me find
Myself again.
I want to live
And not cry on the dailt basis.
Thank you
Ill write more to discover myself
His absence is hurting me.
And someone please unfuck my mind
It's too much of bullshit.
Please will you?
Thankyou.
Love you god,i believe in you.
<3
