Have you ever felt the loneliness when no one care about you?
When you left behind by friends who don't remember you?
Being alone... Is that what you really like? Or something you want to avoid?
For me.. I can't avoid.. Being too open minded for every angle.. Meks me someone who can blend into different conversations.. But there is only one thing I can't avoid.. Being forgotten by friends..
Maybe there are thimes they remember me.. But there are also time when they left me.. Since they have many friends.. I too have friends.. But only the one that can't remember me.. So.. The reason I'm always left alone by myself? I don't know either... I dislike taking away other attention but I love giving attentions to others.. Too kind? Too navie? I don't know.. But to me.. Being alone is fun.. Just I have the problems of imaginations and temper problems..
I always makes stupid decisions in life.. To run away from problems.. I cut my hair.. I listen to music.. I eat a lot.. I won't sleep according the time I was suppose to.. I know this might sound silly.. But I think I'm falling in love with an artist who don't even know me! Gosh! Who would be this stupid to do so? They are many fishes out there and yet I choose a whale who can't even notice me!
I sounded so stupid.. I wish I could turn back time so I won't suffer this loneliness..
Many have their own problems.. SO do I... But how I face them? When I can't even control the feelings of having my woldest dream.. Maybe this sound good to me but.... I really having a reality and imaginations problems.. Can anyone save me from this tragic? If only I could meet him.. I just want to meet the guy of my life.. I found one but he don't even know who the hell I am! Silly.. Everything sounds silly..
Everything on my mind.. I can't tell it.. I just can't tell.. Telling won't help me get to no where.. Just my dreams can take me to somewhere I wanted to go.. Just that one place I'll ever be happy for the rest of my life.. Watching video,movies or listening to their songs.. I felt like I'm in heaven! Why do I felt that my problems are gone away just when I listen to his voice? His voice makes me smile all the time.. And I don't know why.. He acts cool all the time after being teased but deep in his heart he is suffering.. Why do have to act the same as I do? Why? BUt others know how you felt because you told them.. Should I do the same as well?
If only we could be friends.. So I could share everything to you since you understand how I felt.. To me.. Your emotions speaks louder than your heart..
Hye.. Would you be mine when you saw me next time? Would you listen to my heart? Because I hate being alone.. I just hate it..
