Kay looked at Neung, disappointed in him. Why was he so defeated in himself? Kay knew Neung had messed up-it was one of the reasons they had fought, after all-but it wasn't like him to talk like that. Usually Neung was much more optimistic, which Kay loved. He loved everything about Neung, actually. The fact that he wanted to be a model, the fact that he took dying in games very good-naturedly, and the fact that he had been willing to do the internship. Kay was still upset that he had panicked when Neung had tried to kiss him properly after the accidental kiss. He had been dreaming of those lips for two years, yet he rolled out from under Neung when when he had come close. He couldn't forget Neung's disappointed and panicked face, nor the fact that Neung didn't leave the bathroom for three hours. Now that they were talking again, Kay was hoping he would get another chance to kiss Neung.
"I thank this project for one thing" Neung said, watching Kay closely. He noticed that Kay looked oddly hopeful before answering with "thank it for what?"
"I thank this project for giving me a chance to be around a lovely friend like you, and have good times and bad times together"
Kay looked up guiltily at that. He knew his attitude had gotten out of hand, making them both lose points and hurting Neung in the process. He hadn't meant to get so snarky, but once he started, he couldn't stop. Hurting Neung had been easy, having known him for so long, but Kay hated himself for doing it.
"Also, it made me know that you'll be here, not going away from me" Neung finished.
Kay couldn't believe how soft Neung's face was, and how much love was in his voice. He had messed up so badly, and yet here was Neung, still wanting to be with him.
Neung watched Kay, who wasn't quite looking at him. He got surprised when Kay took his hand and put it on his heart. Neung could tell how much Kay needed comfort by how hard he had placed Neung's over his heart and also by how much he was clutching Neung's hand, making sure Neung was staying there.
"I'm sorry for refusing you and running away from you that time. Probably, it wasn't because I didn't trust you, but because I didn't trust myself" Kay said.
Neung listened as Kay confessed, full of love. The romantic feelings were newer for him, hitting him around the time of the beginning of the internship. They had been friends for years, and Neung would never want to mess up their relationship, whether they just stayed friends or became more. He hadn't realized he was just staring at Kay, stars in his eyes, until Kay started talking again.
"If you feel the same way I do, please tell me"
Neung took Kay's other hand and placed it on his heart. He had to admit he wasn't expecting a squeeze, but it felt good and it felt right. As he started asking a question, he felt Kay's hand pull down his shirt slightly so that some of his fingers were on Neung's chest. Despite the distraction, Neung was able to keep his voice steady as he asked "Do you think I feel the same way you do?"
The two stared at each other for a bit, feeling each other's heartbeats and growing more hopeful by the second. When Kay smiled and nodded as an answer, Neung felt like his heart could burst with joy, but all he could do was stare at Kay. Gosh, how he loved him. Loved how he wanted to be a cook, loved his dirtier-than-one-would-expect mind, and loved how they weren't fighting anymore. He wanted to give Kay the best first kiss ever, so he moved his hand from Kay's chest to his shoulder and guided Kay over to his bed, never letting go of Kay's other hand. After staring at Kay for a bit more, as he was amazed that this was about to happen, he leaned Kay against the bed.
Kay was feeling many things as Neung laid him down, but mainly lust. He wanted Neung's lips on his, and Neung was taking a while. However, since he knew he had screwed up the first one, Kay let Neung go his own pace. When Neung put his hand on his face and started kissing him though, Kay had to admit it had been well worth the wait. Neung's lips were so soft, the pressure of his hand on his face was just right, and when Neung slipped his tongue into Kay's mouth, Kay couldn't resist putting his hand on Neung's back to try and bring him closer.
Neung was surprised how much Kay was kissing him back. He knew that Kay had feelings for him, of course, but this time, Kay was ready to be kissed. This was much better than the accidental kiss they had shared. When Neung felt Kay's hand on his back, he couldn't help but smile against the kiss. He loved Kay's touch and still couldn't believe this was happening. Kay seemed to want Neung badly, considering that the hand on his back was now moving down and was starting to lift Neung's shirt to explore Neung's chest. He let go of Kay's other hand, which he had been holding with interlocked fingers ever since he had leaned Kay back, and Kay started exploring Neung's torso in earnest.
Kay was slightly surprised that Neung was letting him explore this much of him, as he knew that it took Neung a long time to get physical, yet also knew that Neung had to trust-and love-him a lot if this was okay with with him. When Kay felt Neung's hand go up his shirt and rub his back, he couldn't help but moan a little. How could he have panicked when this felt so good and so right? It was better than he had ever dreamed of.
Kay's little moan was music to Neung's ears, making him feel a rush of emotions he wasn't expecting. He knew now that he was forgiven for sure. He pulled Kay into a sitting position and kissed him around the neck before kissing him even deeper and longer than before.
