Forever Waiting... (One Direction Fanfiction)

Girl Can We try one more time...........

Niall's POV

I woke with my arms tangled into someone elses, my head was pounding so bad like it was about to blow.

I looked down on the pillow to see a mop of curly brown hair.........okay Lilly defiantly didn't have curly hair.

I started to get really creeped I slowly crept out of the bed noticing I only had my boxers on..........Oh no we didn't...oh god no.

I slowly crept out of the bed which made the girl stir and turn on the pillow..............She opened her eyes "AHHHH".

Screams echoed throwout the whole apartment "What are you doing here" "how am i supposed to know" "Niall what the hell happened!!".

I mentally screamed in my head "maybe we should just" I waved my hands around trying to figure out what to do.

Usually Lilly would be here with me just looking at her face calms me down I took a deep breath and faced a tear streaked ceren.

"Ni-all did we" I closed my eyes the tears where getting the better of me "I dont know ceren but everything does say that we maybe did".

My voice cracked at the end I can't believe I did that to Lilly I can't hurt her anymore its better if i just left it would be better for her.

I shook my head and leaned my self against the wall I screw up everything I am the screw up I banged my head against the wall.

"Niall what are we going to do n-now" Ceren's voice was cracking I shook my head "i-i don't know ceren".

'Maybe I should leave that's the only thing i Can do I dont want to hurt Lilly anymore I just can't watch her hurt because of me".

Ceren looked at me with tears in her eyes "what about me and l-l-lou" I looked up at her with sad eyes.

"Your going to go to him when he wakes up and tell him how much you love him and forget that last night even happened".

She nooded "w-when are you going to leave" I closed my eyes "I'm going to leave right now just let me pack and write a letter".

She nodded I grabbed my jeans that where lying on the ground and picked up my shirt I was walking out the door when ceri ran to me and hugged me.

"I-Im going to miss you nialler" I hugged her back "I'm going to miss you to ceri boo" I smiled sadly and left to my room to pack.

I opened the door to my room tears where streaming down my face freely I went over to my closet and grabbed everything stuffing it in my suitcase.

I had packed nearly everything I got out a paper and started writing a letter to Lilly, it took me quit a while but I had Finlay finished.

I looked down at the letter to see my tears staining it I roughly wiped them away I put the letter in an envelop writing lillys name.

I went over to grab my suitcase I looked at my room one last time I sighed I looked over at my bedside table finding a picture of me and lilly.

I t was when we went to the amusment park her eyes where twinkling from the lights hitting them I was kissing her cheeks and a blush was creeping up on her cheeks.

I took it out of the frame and out it in my pocket closet to my heart I wipped away my last few tears  I had to do this for lilly.

I went downstairs Ceren was waiting near the door I went over to her and hugged her "Tell Lou to get well soon and ill miss having someone to jump on".

she nodded "also can you give this letter to Lilly" I passed her the letter I wrote earlier, I gave ceren one last hug.

I got in my car and drove the last hougths in my head where if I was doing the right thing I shook it off .

I thought about Lilly and everything about her she was perfect she didn't even try she was just perfectly imperfect.

Lilly's POV

I woke up stiff from sleeping on the hospital chairs, I decided to go get some coffee seeing i was the only one awake.

I got up and stretched that was the last time I was sleeping in one of those chairs I started walking over tot the hospital cafeteria.

As I was walking I banged into someone "oww" I looked up tot see a tear stricken Ceren I got up and hugged her.

"Whats wrong ceri" she sniffled and handed me a letter it had my name written on the front with tear patches on it.

I opened it to find Nialls writing-

Dear lilly by the time you read this ill probably getting closer to mulling-er, i know your going to hate ME for this but its for the best.

Ive done things i cant even say things that are so bad that even i feel disgusted I'm so so sorry for all the hurt Ive given you.

ill never forgive myself for all the things Ive done to you, so I'm hoping you ll find someone who is much better than me.

ill never froget you your my one and only your the one who my heart skips a beat looking at your the one who will i will always fall for whenever see your beautiful face.

maybe if fate has it well meet again maybe we Can begin again, you know me and how i always wanted to be the person with the perfect family perfect ife with the perfect wife.

i was hoping you would Be able to complete my dream but i guess that is never going to happen but you should no i will never move on because they will be no one greater than you.

love

nialler, dont miss me much move on.......

 I sat myself in a chair that was nearby tears where coming out of my eyes "but there will be none better than you niall"..........................

I CRIED WRITING THIS CHAP IT JUST MAKES ME SO SAD.............................

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