I've come to the conclusion that life is not worth it, and i want to leave. I cant find anything in my life that makes me feel happy. I take on so many things in an effort to find something that makes me truly happy so why do i still feel so empty. i feel as if i honestly have nothing left to live for. I will never love as strongly again. people claim to care but i don't care about my fucking self. I am so far removed from where i want to be and i just want to start over. im miserable and i want to leave please. nothing makes me feel content in my life, its all a facade. i'm a joke and everyone knows it. i would die here if i could, with a warm blanket wrapped around my cold heart. nobody even reads these anymore. I'm sorry that you've grown to hate who i am just as i did. i dont know why i thought this would help me. all i do is sit here and cry out to the world thinking it would help me when it doesn't do anything but hurt me time and time again. I need to leave my house. I need to leave my soul.
