For when I read those simple words I didn't feel anything at all.
I felt numb.
As if I was all of a sudden so naïve to think that It couldn't be possible.
I was naïve.
I am naïve.
Too blind to realize that the future I had in sight was impossible. I was too dumb and stupid to know that nothing was going to happen but I still allowed myself to fall in love with everything about you.
The emotions that I was supposed to feel then, are finally catching up to me. And my heart is aching so bad, it's suffocating me.
How could someone I barely know, heck I don't even know at all, have so much power over my emotions.
How'd I let that happen?
How could I be so stupid?
With every dose of happiness that was transmitted through his laughter and smiles, they were transmitted to my loving memory of him.
I could see it all.
I could see our future and how happy we could be together.
But I bet not even the idea of us being together crossed your mind. I can't help but be mad at you but I know that I shouldn't be because how could you have possibly known?
I'm just left alone to get myself back together now before I have to come face to face with you.
My mind is going crazy as if I took a dose of something illegal but I did something worse and I took a dose of you.
And fuck was that intoxicating.
Just like any other drug, you're making me numb in everything that I do except for wanting more and more of you.
You are the worst kind of drug that I can ever take.
I wish I could put my trust in you. And you The same with me.
I only wish.