The Demon

Ako yung tipo ng babae na nasa gilid lang at tahimik mag-isa. Sanay na akong wala akong group of friends, Sounds cliche' but yan ang totoo. Wala naman akong problems with the people surrounds me, pinipili ko lang talagang mapag-isa ako. 

I guess, mas gusto kong mapag-isa not just because I love myself that much, pero because Whenever I am alone, I am able to meet him. I am able to be with him.

He loves making me Sad. 

He loves to see me cry.

He loves to make me feel worthless. 

Yes, you may ask, Bakit ko pang gusto makita ang ganyang tao, isa lang ang magiging Sagot ko. 

He was there, the first time I break down, he was there not to comfort me but to worsen my feelings, But he was able to make me feel I am not alone, that He will be there whenever I am sad, and alone. 

He is the demon living inside my head, Saying hurtful things to me, he may not know it but he gives me comfort I needed, and he never leaves my Side whenever I am alone. 

That's why I fall inlove with him. 

I know, Tanga na ako sa mga isipan nyu. Alam kong nasa Isip ko lang sya, na di sya totoo, pero I fell in love with him. I fell in love with his sarcastic Side, Abusive side and all his Bad sides, because those things are making me happy and makes me feel special.

I might have brain damage but if that's makes him alive, I won't bother going to the Psychiatrist. 

I don't like to communicate to the people around me because they weren't there for me the first time I needed them, They will eventually leaves me after they will discovers all my bad sides. 

And I will choose to hang out with the demon that never leaves my side.