Two Faced

Four

My sister.. she uh-

She was okay.

She used to be okay.

After dad died things changed drastically.

She was always a bragger. Always acting like she was better then me and Isaiah, but at least she had her moments when she was an actual sister. A good sister.

When dad died it's like all her flaws got bigger and grew so large that it covered everything good about her. Isaiah and I couldn't stand being around her. She was just so, so bratty. So rude always making things about her, always wanting to get her say in, even when it wasn't her business. Always thinking she was right about everything. Lying and manipulating us constantly. She was just a big bully.

Wanting everyone in the house to treat her like some damn queen.

If I'm being honest.. I partially blamed her for what happened to him.

To Isaiah.

Maybe if she wasn't so hard on us all the time, especially at such a rough time. I thought that maybe he wouldn't have been pushed over the edge. I never hated her for it though, it was just a feeling I had deep down inside.

Of course now that I've come to terms with everything I realized that it was his fault. He is the only one to blame. He's the one who decided to go down that path. No one forced him into anything.

It's just selfish. Both Claudia and Isaiah. What they did to our family. It's like I'm the only one who's doing something right.

Sometimes I feel like.. if everyone has so many negative things to say about me.. what if, it's all true. What if I'm a terrible person just like Claudia and my mom tell me all the time. What if I'm just in denial or I can't see it just like how they can't see their issues.

I just hate how even though she's in the wrong, mom always puts her hand on her head.

'My poor baby Claudia. She's so misunderstood.'

She always gets away with everything. I always felt like mom and dad were to blame for why Claudia ended up the way she is. They spoiled her. Now she thinks that she's entitled to everything. That everything should treat her like a god. Oh my, how horrible it would be if 'dear Claudia' was mistreated.

Everyone is so blinded. They can't see how much of a monster she really is.