Blood [On Hold]

Pressure

I sat there on the large bricked wall of Trenton High. My black lace dress was already ripped from the last time I climbed this wall and yet, I decided to wear it again, making it rip even further up the bottom. My fishnets were the only things that were still intact and not totally ruined. Hell even my combat boots were scuffed up. I roamed my one gloved hand through my long brown hair and spread it out evenly around both my shoulders. The day was beautiful and warm, not what anyone would expect for a town like ours.

"Hey beautiful." A voice I recognized all too well from the nights of sneaking out my dirty window and into his tree house, said gently from below.

"Ah, an hour and a half late. I dare ask where you've been?" I teased.

"In the principals office. Mr.Rudrick say's 'Your dress conduct is an influence on other students. You might want to do this school a favor and change that.' " he said mockingly. We had a thing about trying to do proper English accents. It was a lot harder than you'd see professional actors do, but it was fun to us, and oddly satisfying knowing it annoyed other people.

I rolled my eyes. "Mr. Rudrick is just mad cause his lovely wife Balinda thinks im quite fetching in my attire." I laughed smoothing out my dress.

"She's not the only one." He said raising a brow. His devilish smirk made a chill run up my spine. I giggled softly at his terrible flirting skills. He never was good at it but, something about his lack of braincells made me like him even more.

"Oh?" I asked, as i watched him hop up and sit himself effortlessly next to me. His black skinny jeans were ripped up from this wall as well and he enjoyed making the tears worse by pulling the ripped parts further. He liked to think of his style as punk, and honestly, it suited him well.

"Oh is correct." he said with a soft smile on his lips. I could stare at him for hours if time allowed it. I eyed him for a bit before my eyes fell onto his shirt. A small suppressed laugh escaped my lips as i read the name of his band with a picture of what was supposed to be a squid next to it, appeared to look much more like the male genital, to which only fueled my laughter more until tears brimmed my eyes.

"What? You don't like it?" he asked. For a moment It was hard to tell that he was indeed not being sarcastic but being serious.

I had to hold my breath before I could speak. "No, no--I-I love it." I lied.

A frown dressed his face in place of the boyish smile. "Oh please. I know you all too well to know thats a damn lie." he said pulling his black vest over the shirt.

A little confusion crept in me. I hated when he took things so seriously. "Calum Im sorry I didnt mean to offend you. Its just... well... Your shirt... it looks like..." But before i could finish what I was going to say, he looked at me, his red bangs falling in his face.

"No offence taken." He said, as he averted his gaze from me and onto a group of girls down below.

I couldnt help but stare in shock. Was he really that pissed off about a shirt? "Fine. Whatever. " i said hopping off the wall. My feet hitting the ground sent agonizing pain all the way up my legs but, I pretend it didn't hurt and continued walking away.

"Air, wait." Calum said hopping down as well. His converse were quite as he hit the ground but, I knew it hurt him just as much as it hurt me. His footsteps quickened as I was already close to the schools hallway entrance. "Stop Airy!" He yelled. I didnt listen.

His hands grabbed at my wrist and he pushed me hard into the hard wall of the school. "I'm sorry." He panted.

I wouldnt look at him. "It's okay." I said trying my best to pull his hands off my wrist.

"Baby please. Im sorry. That was stupid." his jaw tensed up as he said that and the naive part of me gave up fighting him.

When I wouldnt look at his eyes he used his free hand and forced me to meet them. We didn't talk and I didnt fight. Everything was still. All the students had gone to class leaving only him and me out here. Quiet. And then he kissed me. "I love you." he said. Ive never said it back, it just never seemed right and today wasnt going to be that day I started. He pulled back to meet his green eyes with mine. Realizing tears slightly crept in my eyes, his soft boyish smile was back and so were his lips but this time more forceful than when he started. I forced back, it felt natural and exciting. Our breathing came in a rush. It was as if we were both stealing each others oxygen to survive. His hands went to the zipper of my dress and he slowly began unzipping it. Any other time, I wouldve let him have his way. Especially after a stupid fight. It just felt more thrilling that way, and probably wouldve been thrilling right here outside the entrance to the school as well... But something didnt sit right with me.

"Calum wait." I said between breaths, using my free hand to push lightly on his chest.

"For what Airy?" he asked as he began forcing his lips down my neck, licking and biting in which i knew would leave bruised marks against the skin.

"For this..." I said nervously between breaths.

His breath was slow as he licked the nape of my neck. "Shh. Dont think so much." he said, his voice hummed against my skin. Usually him telling me what to do wouldve been a turn on, but I was not in the mood and he was not listening. I pushed harder against his chest but he barely budged. It was like a rock was placed in front of me and there was no moving it.

He pulled back a little and gazed at me. The look that had seemed boyish, now seemed devilish and it sent chill sup my spine. "Come on Air. If you love me you'd do this. Please?" he pleaded.

My heart was racing. Was he really trying to pressure me? And now? I allowed a smile to form on my face to which he smiled back, only to be met with an instant shriek as i knee'd him in the groin. "Next time, if a girl asks you to wait, you fucking wait!" i yelled. I wanted out of this place and away from him. I ran past eight classes and a few students with wary eyes. When I got to the girls bathroom, I quickly locked the door behind me. Tears began pouring out of my eyes as I slid down the dirty door. I shouldnt be crying over him but, I couldnt help it. I'd been with him three years and he'd never pressured me like this before. I pulled my legs close to me and stuffed my face in my palms.

Knock after Knock came at the door but I kept silent.

"Open up man! Some people actually need to go to the damn bathroom!" A girl yelled on the other end.

After her fiftieth knock I stood up, adjusted my dress and rubbed off whatever smeared makeup was on my face. When I unlocked the door the girl that stood behind it was of course the natural blonde haired, green eyed, cheerleader, Delilah. She rolled her eyes at me. "Of course I would find you in here out of all people. What? Am I enterrupting your weed fest?" She said annoyingly.

I laughed despite myself. " To be honest I wish you were." I said moving out of her way.

The look on her face was priceless. She must have been shocked I didnt have a smart ass comeback. "I know im totally going to regret asking but, are you okay?" She asked setting her hands on her non existing hips.

I walked to the sink and looked at myself in the mirror. My Blue eyes didn't have the usual yellow ring around the pupil which was weird for me and I clearly looked like shit. But I lied. "Yeah i'm fine just my usual break down. Dont worry about it."

She sighed. "Well that's good to know. I wouldnt had worried even if your life counted on it." She said flipping her long blonde hair. In my head I imagined cutting it off while she was sitting in Bio but I quickly erased the thought. Delilah waited at the door, tapping her foot impatiently. Pull yourself together Airyliss, I told myself before finally mustering up the courage and walking out the bathroom door. I only got two steps out of the school building and saw Calum waiting in the school parking lot. I was going to have to find another way out of this place without bumping into him.