Feelings ;)

First Don't Pick up Your Phone

                   At first i was like...
"My class is not that bad i have many friends here!"
And i wasn't totally wrong, i had a lot of friends even if there were many people that i don't like.
I was with my friends,that's all that mattered

Giiiiiirl you are not ready for the sequel.

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From the beginning,from the first day in this math class where our head teacher prepare us for this new year.
I feel it, this feeling, (this is so embarrassing lmao idk how I do to write this here) i wanted to pee...
Yes. I know. This isn't seggsy.
Idk why.
But when i'm stressed i need to go to the bathroom.
So in front of my entire new class.
I asked if I could go to the bathroom just because I had my period.
Fckin liarrrrrrr.
It was the beginning of the WORST YEAR OF MY LIFE.
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Let me explain please?
At every courses, i have this feeling, 'k ?
I' m not in my place,I sweat, I'm not comfortable, my heart beats so hard that I hear it in my head, the beats resonate in my ears, my head hurts and my vision is a little blurred.

The same scenario at all courses.
To almost all, some courses went better than others
But very quickly for my class i was the "miss nursery"
Because every time i needs to pee,to go out of the class, i "simulate" (idk if i simulate because i was really not good feeling)  to go to the nursery.

I was getting worse and worse and the situation with my class wasn't getting better.
Fortunately I had a friend with whom I could go to the toilet during the intercourses because every time i needed to go to the bathroom she wanted too (We were to many late to justifying the teachers couldn't take it anymore)

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I will always remember these French classes, I loved the teacher she was really nice and she loved her job and she wanted us to love her material but I couldn't enjoy her classes, it was too much stress and anxiety that I could hardly ever concentrate well.

And this day in my Spanish class, that I was so bad that I almost pretended to faint, no joke, to much anxiety for me i just said peace out.

And this other day in my art class (This teacher was a sugar, I would really like to thank him and be able to really talk to him again without claiming anything) it was the first course with him, i was too scared, i pretend to faint..., for real, when i remember of this now, what a shame, what a bad idea.
And i immediately regret it, so i said louder "i'm fine,i'm fine don't worry"
But my teacher was worry, so i go to the nurse and I came back like a flower, as nothing happened.

For the entire year all of my classmates remember this event.And ALWAYS remind me that i'm such an actress.
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Just to say, now, I have a little perspective on the situation, I don't think like at this time of my life (last year lol)
If the last years me was writing this, what would she describe her feelings?
I guess we never know.

I hope i never gonna reliving it,this is the worst feeling i never had.

I also have a lot of anecdote and i don't say all i have in my mind but i think that's all for now.
May be i add other things afterwards but for now it's over.
Bye.

{HOW TO TELL THAT I'M SORRY FOR MY BAD ENGLISH, Y'KNOW I'M FRENCH (😩)
IF YOU REALLY READ ALL OF MY FEELINGS KNOW YOU'RE MY BESTIE <33}