One and Only // lucas wong (#34)

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Lucas

It has been a week since the wedding that I have attended as one of the best men and the couple had just returned back from their honeymoon in the tropical island of Krabi, Thailand. They have made a great choice of choosing that island for their honeymoon because it is a warm and tropical place and it is always sunny all year, and the two of them loved sunny places, at least that is the only thing that they have in common.

I wished that I had a chance to travel to Thailand this year because I have been so caught up with work that I totally forgot about it, I have always visited Thailand to see my mother on her birthday ever since I started living in Korea on my own after graduation and I really missed my family so I would always go no matter what but not this year. Maybe I will give her a call to tell her that I couldn't make it this year on her birthday to visit her but I really wished that I was there so that I could wish her a happy birthday in person, not via a phone call.

It has been more than 7 years and I am still living alone in Korea where my family is living in a totally different country, wishing that I would live somewhere nearer to them so that they wouldn't have to travel to a totally different country because of me. But I am totally tied down with work here as a fitness instructor and I would have to start all over again if I were to move to Thailand for real, but I would really do that in the future when I am done with this country that I have spent my high school years and half of my 20s here.

Someday, but that day is not that soon... "You will have to see those pictures that I took of Soojin, she looks like the goddess of the sun for real!" I was shoved with Kim Jungwoo's pictures as soon as I sat down with him for lunch, he had wanted me to have lunch with me and I am probably the first one to have a meal with him other than his own wife.

I looked at the pictures, she really looked like a goddess of the sun, Jungwoo's goddess and she will continue to be his goddess for the rest of his life as he stays married to her. "Are you going to show this off to every single person that you know? Soojin is not going to be happy to know about this."

He smiles like a lovestruck idiot. "She will, she knows that I love her so much that I can't wait to tell the entire world how beautiful she is and she will continue to be this beautiful even if she becomes really old." He giggles once again and I rolled my eyes at him. "Too bad that you can't relate to this at all because you don't have a girlfriend."

"Do you want me to curse at you? I just don't have the time to find one, being a fitness instructor is hard for me to even take the time off to spend time looking for beautiful people." I told him.

"You just couldn't move on with Yuqi right? I know it from the way that you looked at her at the wedding, you haven't stopped loving her not even once." I stopped my actions, looking at such eyes that tells him that he is spouting nonsense. "Why would I not know that? You are like my best friend and I know you like the back of my hand, there is nothing you can hide from me."

"It's been 7 years and I have moved on from her, it is just I haven't seen her in such a long time and I wanted to see her a little more." I continued to lie my way through even though I know that he is not going to believe that nonsense that I am saying right now.

"That is the same thing as not getting over her and still being interested in her, you did love her a lot back then, didn't you?" He takes a sip of his coffee as he stares at me.

He is right, I did love her so much back in high school where my life basically revolved around her and I couldn't live without her around, I loved every single moment that we had together and I missed all the moments that I had spent with her. It was such a beautiful time that we had together and I wished that it didn't end at all, I hated that it had to end and I could do nothing to get her back to me, there was nothing that could convince her to love me and to be with me.

It was a dead-end for the both of us and there is no way of continuing with the relationship other than to walk away from it and she did just that, she left the relationship that we had for almost 3 years and she never returned back. And I still remembered her facial expression right before she decided to break up with me and end the relationship that we had, it was a sad one and I can't ever forget that.

I was the one that caused her to react that way and I regretted making her want to walk away from me and to never return ever again, I was the one who made her think that there was no future with the both of us and the only one is to end the relationship and the two of us wouldn't be hurting so much from it.

"So what I loved her so much? I did something to her that can't be forgiven and it is only right that she walk away from this relationship and wished that she had never loved me, I shouldn't have even fallen for her in the first place. I was a bastard to her and I will always be one."