Dilemma

Morosoph

Roses, Roses,
Daily dosage of numbness.
Cannot face, hard to chase,
Many days of numbness.
Help me, save me,
Are you willing to take a leap of faith?
Tap my back and remind me,
That you are still not late.
Emotions swallowed into the notion,
Unfathomable amount of mixed feelings.
Talk like the day and night will stay as it is,
Distracted only by our thoughts and dreams.
Have you forgotten what we had already?
Wait, hold your thought cause' I am not ready.
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The past is slowly fading and so are you,
Would you let this friendship disintegrate?
Maturity peaked us at our best,
Sadly it made us talk less.
We had great moments and fun conversations,
Please do not let these just be memories.
Brother, have you forgotten about me already?
I've always wondered if you still care about me.
You are not expressive as much as I am,
It makes me doubt what I am to your life now.
Forgive for what I feel but I cannot help it,
We used to laugh so hard and be lit.
I fight these tears and pretend like it's nothing,
Until feeling nothing became my thing.
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Have I really lost you? I am not so sure.
Do you reminisce things like I do at night?
Tragic to see the end of our road without light.
You know me as much as I know you,
And that I express myself in poem than in text.
I want you to know that I am okay with it now,
That it doesn't matter what might come next.
Enough with my childish act and forget it,
I surrender to never chase it ever again.
Promise me this one thing only,
Never forget me truly.
I am ready to face the truth, though it hurts.
I cherished the closeness we used to have,
Now I accept that it will never go back.