Bound To You.

introduction

At present:
My name is neil rogers .im 21 years old.
Im looking out the window of my apartment.i can see kids playing near the fountain,teenagers laughing and patting eachothers back and complimenting something. I can see an old lady with a bag of vegitables walking along with a young women(probably her grandaughter),i can see a guy and a girl sitting peacefully under a tree.
All i could do is watch the same scene a little differently for the two whole years ,with a heavy heart.
This huge feeling of void ...all i could do is feel the heavy fingers clasping its way out of the void with no luck.
I should stop thinking now.
I should stop this feeling . I cant sit around all day flashblacking to my past.
Its been two whole years i am under this trauma. I left all connection to the outside world and left the city i lived two years ago.
Now the only human beings i interact with are :the usual shopkeepers ,bank managers,our ceo and my co-workers.
And i interact with them only officially.
Tan is the only friendliest  person i know now .he is my co-worker.
I used to have a lot of friends back when i was in college. Most of the girls were behind me and i saw all of them like friends or sisters.i never felt the kind of attraction which people calls love between two peoples.the only kind of love i felt was sisterly love ,brotherly love,family love,friends love ,the common kind of love untill he came into my life.
Eric dawson,everything was going fine .everything like i could wish for,but as it says good times never last long....now im in this trauma .i cant even face the world with a straight face .every single time i meet another guy ..im taken to my past..scared to core.
The wounds are healed physically but it never healed mentally.i can hear scream ,my scream...   even now i can feel the pain still hot and raw.
my heart was shattered .i fear it will never heal again. I have one particular goal in life so i just do my best in job to earn money ,find a way to payback to whom i owe .it will also benefit my co workers and company.
I have more than enough money to feed myself and have a shelter,but its  not enough  .
Our company is the well known software developer and i am the main coder (programer).
I am the favorite employee of our ceo mr .wesley. latley he was getting retired. Now he is gone and some youngster is gonna be in controll..
Its almost 10'oclock break time is over.i gotta get back to work.i dont usually go to my office and work ,i do it at home(im a little nervous around people).i only go there and work when my co workers need help.
I have become an introvert person now .i used to be an extrovert person before.
Gonna have a heavy day today. Gotta finish this new project by today and submit it tomorrow to the new CEO.

AUTHORS NOTE:THIS STORY IS MY WORK ONLY. IT IS NOT A COPY OF ANY OTHER STORY.

IT MAY CONTAIN SOME CENSORED CHAPTERS ...IF  I DECIEDE TO WRITE SOMETHING LIKE THAT..IM STILL THINKING ON IT WHETHER I SHOULD OR NOT...IM NOT SURE YET...SINCE IM ONLY AT THE BEGINING .WHEN I FINISH THIS..I WILL REWRITE THE AUTHORS NOTE AGAIN WITH MORE INFORMATION...GO ON READ THE NEXT CHAPTER STORY BEGINS THERE ONLY THIS WAS JUST THE INTRODUCTION.
By the way i might add some songs i like and it dosnt have anything to do with the story.