What If

What if

I pretended not to know how to swim

Take an afternoon stroll by the waterside

End up sitting on the bridge above

Reflecting on my life

Looking at the water flowing underneath my feet

Imagining what it would feel like to immerse myself in it

Imagining what it would feel like to let go

Let go, let my body sink

What if

What if

I pleaded insanity

That bridge high above one of the busiest streets

Imagine standing on it looking over the street below

The bridge high above the railway line

Imagine standing on it looking over the railway below

The train inching its way down the rail unable to brake soon enough

Imagining what it would feel like to let go

Let go, let my body fly

What if

What if

I had the resources to seek help

A few hours each week during the morning

Seated in an uncomfortable chair

Staring at the woman sitting across from me

Telling me about how my mind works, helping me find ways to cope

As I talk about life, experiences, the pain, the frustration

Imagine what it would feel like to let go

Let go, let my mind finally express itself

What if

What if

I had the chance to see my family and friends one last time

To argue with my mom one last time about life

To communicate with just my eyes to my dad

To hold and cherish my brothers

To have my nephew annoy me

To have one last drink up with old friends

Imagine what it would feel like to let go

Let go, let my mind finally find the peace that has eluded it

What if

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