Shin Kuroi [Comfort Writing]

From The Diary of Shin Kuroi

[Author's Note: Long time no see, huh? My life's been, to put it lightly, challenging. In terms of personal life it's been stable, but very busy and sometimes stressful. I've been learning Swedish for a good four or so months, as I plan to move there after college (this is also why I'm now editing this to make Shin Swedish and not French. I mean, this is MY writing after all). Larger parts will be coming in the future]

Kära Dagbok,

Sometimes I go out into the surrounding forest. It's quite refreshing. There's this lake I found after following the river. And I sit myself down by the shoreline and just... take a moment to really think about things. I always have so much on my mind. Despite having some people who love me, I sometimes feel so alone, despite having people who love me and care for me. It's a difficult thing to deal with, which makes it funny that one of the ways I'm able to deal with it is to take some time to truly be by myself. I don't think I'll ever know why.

When I come back from my little adventure, I'm always greeted so warmly. And that warmness makes me able to forget my worries for just a while. Today when I came back, I proceeded to snuggle with my special Terra for hours... they're so warm- in both defnitions of the word, really. Heheh.

It makes it sting all the more when they speak of their worries and anxiety. I wish there was more I could do than just give them all the comfort and support I can- if only I could go inside their brain and shoot the personification of their self-doubt in the face. But at least what I'm able to provide is enough for them, just like how what they provide is enough for me.

I'm just glad things managed to work out the way they did. Things'll never be perfect... but they certainly could be worse. And if I have anything to say about it, it won't be getting worse- only better, as myself and my love move forward, getting through all the adversity the future may hold for us.

I can confidently say thing's'll be alright.

In other news, though, its getting late. And terra is nagging at my side to lay down and cuddle with them in bed already. So, I guess I'll just end this entry here. Goodnight.

~Shin Kuroi