Catarina
"Sorry, this is completely burned" Kristina looks at the popcorn bowl with a small disappointed smile and I can't help, but laugh. It's weird how I manage to laugh, only a day after the worst nightmare of my life, but hey, there's my Kristina. She always, but literally always manages to make me smile, even in the worst days like this and that's why she's my best friend. "It's fine, it's fine, I'll see if there's some chips left" I stand up and disappear to the kitchen. I know her house like it's my own home, well currently it's the closest to what I have as home and I know I'm always welcome here, luckily. Today we'll watch one of the guy's I stay with, movies. I searched a bit and his name is Hero Fiennes Tiffin, pretty weird, I know. "Okay okay, are we ready?" I say getting back in the living room and siting down. "Yes we are ready" Kristina presses the small button on the tv remote and the weird feeling of excitement fills my body. I don't know why I'm excited tho, I don't know that guy, I don't know who he is, I know he is hiding something from me, but I'm just a stranger to him and he doesn't have to tell me anything about his past just like I don't need to tell him the details about my past. The movie starts playing and my eyes are stuck on the tv. Hero is way different here. His hair is longer and messier, he looks so good with black jeans and black shirt which make him look like a bad boy, he looks so handsome, His face and movements are always full of emotions and he got in the role so good. I have heard about After before and I'm pretty sure Hero is a good Hardin. Now he is shirtless, oh damn, the girl took off his shirt, he looks soooo good, his chest and arms are really muscular, but not too much, just like the way I like and it just seems so perfect to kiss his plump, perfectly shaped lips or to lay on his chest in the safety of his strong arms. It must be amazing to have him whispering cute things in my ear with his deep voice with accent. It must be amazing to have fun with him, to make fun about our size difference or to go to the parties with him. It must feel so good to have his big hand in mine and to wear his hoodies and hang out with his friends. Maybe he's the boyfriend material that wouldn't abuse me. But, no, no no no, Catarina, you gotta calm down, you can't fall in love and get hurt again. Love is not a real thing, it hurts, as hell and once you get stuck on it there's not a way back.
I blink a couple of times looking at the screen. Maybe Hero is dating that girl, maybe he loves her and they are happy, I mean, she looks pretty and happy, he definitely doesn't need a broken soul like me. "What are you thinking about?" Kristina asks knowing perfectly I'm lost in my thoughts, which is so true. "Do you think they are in love?" I point at the tv and Kristina furrows her eyebrows. "What? Probably not, they are just acting." A small smirk appears on my face. "You don't want them to be in love, don't you?" Her cheeks turn the shade darker and she looks at me. "What?" "Oh come onnnn, I know you have a big fetish for blonde girls with blue eyes and melting smile" she shakes her head blushing. "I wouldn't really call that a fetish" I chuckle and look back at the tv. "Alright alright, believe in whatever you want".
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The next day I decided to have my come back to the college. I wasn't there for two weeks due to the everything that was happening in my life, but first I need to do one thing. I left all my books at Chad place and now unfortunately I need to go there to pick them up. I'm scared what I'll see there, it can be anything, literally anything. After some minutes of driving in a really awkward taxi I finally get to my ex home. I slowly open the door with the key that's hidden under the mat. I didn't take mine that day when I escaped the house because I was in the huge rush. The house is quiet, so quiet that's even scary. There's not a big mess in there tho, it's pretty similar to when I left. I gulp and keep walking through the house slowly. This silence is scaring me, it's never good, I know he's at home, he wouldn't be anywhere else, not at this time and not while some of his things are here. I open our old bedroom door and what I see inside makes my face pale and completely shocks me"Chad?!"........
