A Beautiful Tragedy

Chapter 7

Songs:

~> Thinking Out Loud - Ed Sheeran

~> Almost is Never Enough - Ariana Grande ft. Nathan Sykes

~> Heart Want What It Wants - Selena Gomez

"I wanted to be one of those people who have streaks to maintain, who scorch the ground with their intensity. But for now, at least I knew such people, and they needed me, just like comets need tails." John Green, Looking for Alaska

Audrey POV

I watched as he slept a small smile placed on his face. He must be dreaming of something lovely. I was up all night thinking. Sleep was the last thing I had on my mind. Nothing made sense; I couldn't put the puzzle pieces together.

His eyes slightly opened.

"What are you staring at?" He rudely remarked.

Ugh here we go.

I didn't reply I wasn't in the mood to fight him or argue with him. I just stood up and made my way towards the bathroom but he took ahold of my wrist.

"I asked you something" he demanded forcefully.

"Not today Harry please." I didn't feel like myself today. It's like everything is going through my head way to fast for me to keep up with myself.

I walked away and took a long hot shower. When I walked out the shower I made sure he wasn't in here so I locked the door and changed. I didn't feel like going down to hang around people so I snuggled back into bed.

Tears rolled down my cheek. I broke down I couldn't function correctly. I didn't know what was going on. Flashbacks, thoughts, feelings everything came rushing through my head.

I can hear my parents arguing my mom's words running through my mind "you're just a memory." I sobbed into my pillow.

My fathers necklace in my hand I tightly held it. "I love you baby girl, remember that." He said before being deported.

I can hear the boys laughing having a good time.

Why does it have to be so fucking hard?

About an hour later there was a knock at my door "Audrey?" Called Louis.

I didn't respond. I heard him walk away a couple seconds later.

*two hours later*

"Audrey?" Called Jake.

I didn't respond all I did was sob.

"Babe are you okay? I can hear you." He asked.

"I just want to be alone." I sobbed.

I heard him walk away.

At that moment I realized I became someone I didn't want to be. That girl I said I was never going to become. I opened my eyes Scarlet's figure hovering over me.

"I warned you to leave him alone, to stay away from him. You're no good for him, you're no good for anyone as a matter of fact. Tell him he needs to leave you alone to leave and never speak to you again. You're just a worthless piece of shit trying to get his money and trying to break his heart." She said.

I close my eyes and whisper "you're not really here; you're dead; you're just an imagination." I repeat over and over again.

She becomes angry and sends the lamp across the room making it crash against the wall and shattering it to tiny pieces.

Knocking on the door and voices saying 'open up'. She continues to get closer and I climb off the bed yelling for her to 'go away.' She continues on telling me how worthless I am and demanding for me to get away from Harry. I back up into the corner with my knees against my chest covering my ears to try to not listen to her and shutting my eyes closed.

The door is opened and soon enough I hear foot steps moving fast towards me.

"Audrey what happened?" Louis asked. I flinched when he touched me.

"Sh-she was here" I stuttered, I was scared.

I'm scared Harry will try to hurt me again.

I'm scared of being labeled 'the crazy girl.'

"Love, there's no one here" Liam commented.

He's already judging me as crazy so I just go along with him.

"yea your right, I'm sorry it was just a dream I don't know what I' m talking about." I laughed to make it seem like it was all just a joke when in reality it's to hide the hurt and pain building up inside of me. I wipe my tears and walk into the bathroom to wash my face. I hear the guys walk out. All I can do is stand in front of the bathroom mirror leaning against the sink. 'You're pathetic' I say to myself.

I can now say I scarcely fathom the idea of just how people feel when they are just not strong enough and just want to be with no one but themselves or just want to go and leave. People don't understand but now I completely do.

"Audrey?" A soft deep voice asks which I have now grown to and can make out to be as Harry's.

"Please Harry."

"Audrey, please just come out I just want to talk give me a chance is all I ask." His head falls onto the door and I hear him take a deep breath.

I don't respond I just sit and think and I finally give in after I realized he wasn't going to leave without saying what he has to say.

I sat like a little kid on the bed; with my feet crossed.

"I know how you feel." He said.

I sat there quietly fiddling with my fingers I felt my eyes water.

"Audrey say somethimg" Harry practicly demanded.

"I can't" I sobbed. "There's nothing to say, all I want is my normal life back. I've become practily a doll, someone I don't want to be don't you see that Harry?" I look up and sob. " I want my dad back, my mom doesn't love me, my brother is a drug addict I'm almost as crazy as him, you don't understand you don't know what it feels like to have someone so close to you go away forever and have to accept the fact that they are gone and they can't help you anymore you can't feel their arms around you, you can't hear their voice, you can't see them smile or hear their laugh. It fucking sucks. You don't know that and you don't understand how it feels to feel unloved and to have the person you love most give up on you and basically throw you out of their life to be called just a memory left to die and be forgotten. You don't know any of it!" I yell in rage as the tears continue to stain my now red cheeks.

"REALLY? IS THAT WHAT YOU THINK, BECAUSE DO YOU NOT REMEMBER I LOST MY GIRLFRIEND THE GIRL I WANTED TO MARRY AND SPEND MY LIFE WITH AND THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN SHES GONE JUST LIKE THAT SHE'S GONE FOR GOOD I CANT GET HER BACK, DO YOU NOT REMEMBER THAT AUDREY? FOR GOD SAKE AUDREY OPEN YOUR EYES YOUR SO STUCK UP AND TO YOURSELF ALL YOU THINK ABOUT IS YOU!!" He yelled.

Who the fu- "STUCK UP, SELFISH? REALLY?!?! YOU HAVE FRIENDS WHO FUCKING CARE AND LOVE YOU HARRY THEY TRY TO TALK TO YOU AND YOU ONLY IGNORE THEM AND GIVE THEM A BAD ATTITUDE WHILE THEY GET IN FUCKIG TROUBLE FOR YOU AND TALE THE BLAME AND YOU JUST SIT THERE AND NOT EVEN SAY THANK YOU TO THEM YOU DONT APPRECIATE THE FACT YOU HAVE YOUR FAMILY AND YPUR FRIENDS AND ME I FUCKING CARE ABOUT YOU I KEPT YOU HERE AT NIGHT AND CARED FOR YOU AND YOU FUCKING CALL ME SELFISH GET THE FUCK OUT HARRY." To this point I've had enough of his nonsense I'm raging I can't believe he just said that. He lifts his hand and I flinch thinking his going to hit me but instead he tugs at the roots of his hair and take a deep breathe before slamming my door shut.

The boys asking him what was going on all I hear is the door slam shut and I slide down the wall sobbing.

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