No More Running (NaLu)

Chapter 5: Life Without Her

Natsu's P.O.V.

I screamed her name. She didn't even look back. My heart was being shattered into millions of pieces as I watched her run. I couldn't run fast enough to catch up with her. She was running faster than I had ever thought possible! I stopped to gather my breath. That was a horrible move. By the time I had enough air to come to my senses and look up, she was long out of sight.

My eye lids shot open as I woke up. I gasped for air, gripping my sheets like a scared little boy that just saw a monster under his bed.

"Lucy!" I gasped. I saw a blue blur fly across the room and suddenly, the light flickered on. Happy immediately appeared in front of me.

"Natsu! What's wrong????" He asked, concerned. I didn't answer. I just gripped the sheets. I squeezed my eyes shut, hoping I could snap out of this nightmare. It wasn't a nightmare...Lucy was gone. She'd been gone for about two weeks now. I've had the same reoccurring dreams. Every night.

After I calmed myself down a bit, slowly stood up, still ignoring Happy. I walked slowly out of our bedroom and walked through the darkness of the house. I stopped near a small table in the hallway where a little, red, clay dragon statue sat. Lucy made this for me....I thought to myself. It's adorable.

I picked it up in my hands,

"Lucy...." A tear fell from my eyes, landing on the paint and smudging the paint a bit when I tried to rub it off. I made my way to the roof of my home, where I often sat to look at the stars.

Lucy loved to look at the stars with me...she would point out and name most of the constellations. Almost every night we would sit on the roof and look at stars.

Now, I sat alone. In the darkness of the night. I looked up at the star-lit sky, a few more tears escaping my eyes.

"Lucy....where the hell are you?? I miss you..." I cried for the remainder of the night.

The days at the guild for me are scarcely existent. I usually just go to Lucy's house and try to find evidence of why the love my life left. Nothing so far, but the only thing I could do was keep looking.

Makarov won't allow me to go looking for her. He doesn't let anyone go looking for her anymore. Not since Gajeel and the others came back injured.

Gajeel is still hospitalized, as well as a few of the guild members that went along with him to find Lucy. It's been about a week since they came back, yet few of them are conscious. Most of them, including Gajeel, are still in what the doctors say "a coma state".

We still don't know what happened. It's bothering the living hell out of me. What if it was Lucy? No! She couldn't have done this! She would never!! I fight with myself over the topic often.

Erza tries to visit me sometimes, I let her inside, just don't talk.

I still sat on the roof, staring at the dragon statue that my Lucy made for me, tears still blurring the paint. It was about 11:00 am now, the sky a pretty blue color with pure white clouds.

I sighed and closed my eyes, letting the breeze blow in my face. Suddenly, I heard a quiet, yet noticeable noise. I opened my eyes and jerked my head in that direction, in high hopes that I may see the flawless blonde hair and deep brown eyes of Lucy Heartfillia.

To my dissatisfaction, my eyes met light brown ones. They weren't Lucy's, they were much colder than Lucy's. I sighed with disappointment and turned around.

"I had a feeling you would be up here, Natsu." I instantly recognized her deep, yet caring voice to be none other than the great Erza Scarlet. Though she had probably already seen them, I quickly wiped my tears away and replied with a cold, deep, cruel,

"What do you want, Erza." Seconds later, she sat next to me. She tilted her head a bit and tried to look at my face. I looked away. If I looked at her, I knew I would melt. I would most likely burst into tears like a little girl who had lost her puppy.

"Natsu.....please look at me?" She asked with a polite and gentle voice. I said nothing, just kept avoiding eye contact. I heard her sigh loudly and I felt her gaze leave me. I sighed in annoyance.

"If you're not going to say anything then go away." I mumbled coldly.

"Natsu.....I know it hurts...." She turned her gaze toward the small clay-made dragon in my hands and kept speaking. "I know it's hard...but...." she let out a heavy sigh and I heard her silently cry. She changed the topic quickly, to something I didn't want to hear,

"I-I don't want to say this, Natsu. Really I don't...but I promised Master that I would talk to you about it..." Her voice trailed off.

"What is it." I mumbled with a hint of annoyance in my tone. She let out another sigh and stared down at her hands.

"Natsu...they think she's dead...and I'm beginning to believe it as well..." She whispered. My eyes widened and for the first time since she's arrived, I stared at her.

"YOU WHAT?!?!" I yelled loudly, making her flinch.

"I'm sorry...but think about it, Natsu. She's been gone for two weeks and we don't even know where she went! She could very well be long dead by now!!" She was trying hard not to start sobbing. I could see it in her expression.

My mind was filling with rage and confusion. Finally, I exploded,

"YOU ARE AN IDIOT!!! SHE WOULD NEVER DIE LIKE THAT. SHES TOO STRONG!! ITS PHYSICALLY IMPOSSIBLE FOR HER TO DIE SO SOON!!" In the process of all this, I had stood up. I was standing on the roof, screaming at a girl who is now crying hard.

"N-Natsu...." She buried her face into her arms and kept crying. "I'm sorry..." I was now sobbing. My bangs overlapped most of my face and I couldn't take it anymore.

"Erza, leave. Don't come back. Tell Makarov I'm not going to be at the guild for a long time. I need space." I mumbled. She looked up and reluctantly nodded, standing up and walking over to the window, climbing through it and leaving my home.