BELISAERE ACADEMY

22. ♤SABRIEL♤

I walked into her room to find her but she wasnt there. I heard the shower running. I wanted to walk in but I didn't want to die early. While waiting a book on her desk caught my attention.

Her heart♡

The flame within her heart burnt only for him. He showed her the meaning of love. She yearned for him. The feeling he gave her was addictive. Like a drug. No. It was worse. She could never find it in anybody else or with anybody else. Her heart felt incomplete without him. Like it was torn apart. Broken into timy peices and thrown into the ocean. She believed that she was meant to stay that way. Alone. Forever.

She remembered watching him walk away from her. She remembered watching him take the hand of another and pull her into his arms. She remembered how he kissed her half sister infront of her. She remembered the way he broke her heart and shattered her soul. He gave her a look that told her they she was nothing. He used her. He left her broken and weakened to rot alone in the forest. He shattered everything. Her trust, her barriers, her feelings, her love and her heart. She should have trusted her gut. He used her. He didn't get what he wanted so he broke her. Took her for all she had.

The memories of her crying her heart out every night flooded her mind. When her heart told her it wasn't him she should have listened. When her heart told her she had someone to go to she never went. She refused to go there. She knew the conciquences of her actions. She wouldn't do that. She would never resort to that. More heart break. Never again.

She writes? How lovely. This sounds familiar but I can't get my mind on it. She doesn't have a sister so it must be a normal story. I turned the page.

♡Mi Vida♡

I realised why it hurt so much. It was never because of him. It was my sister that hurt me. My heart was right. I never loved him. I loved his brother. The one I refused to go to. Why would he want anything to do with me. He would do the same. Use me and throw me aside. I remember waking up every morning trying to think of ways to see his face.

Sometimes I would wake up to his bright turquiose eyes hovering over me. He claims to love me but I never except him. Everything fits. Everything is explained. Why I never had my first kiss, why my heart skipped beats when I saw him, why I lost my breath and stuttered around him, why I felt a pull towards him. It all makes sense.

My heart tells me that i should tell him but I can't. I know that I am in love with him but I wont give him that satisfaction. They will think that I am trying to to stay in the family or that the brothers share a  girl. Never! Never ever! Everybody wants to be a billionare but when I see him I just don't care. I simply want love. Even if it means living far away from all people and species with Mi Vida I will be fine. If only it was possible.

I love him. I simply have fallen in love with him.

I have to say, Ezparenza is a very vivid writer. Her stories all seem familiar. Like I was involved but I'm not.

Hiding a smile♤♡

He cornered me in the corridor. I forced a concerned look. I enjoyed the simple five minutes which we spent together against a wall bickering. I knew that if I didn't leave I would let something slip. I escaped him and ran down stairs. I put my back against the wall and held my soanish books to my chest, taking a deep breath and smiling. I heard voices but chose to ignore them. I prefered the memory of him holding my wrists in his hands and laughing at my insults and sarcastic comments towards him. I found it cute when he pinned my hands to the wall. She broke my concentration with her horrible voice.

She told me how much she hates to see me smile and how I don't deserve hapiness. She didn't even belong here. She should go back to her school. But, rich snobs belong together. I walked to my room. They ruined a good day. They weren't  supposed to. My sister hates me for some reason. It is like her mussion to ruin my life. As I said, they weren't supposed to ruin my perfect day.

Crap! She is talking about me! How and why?! Are these all about me? No. The break up. Her and Balthozar! Wait! Then that means that... No! Crystal can't be her sister! Not even a half sister! I turned the page and carried on reading.

Him♡

I didn't expect him! It's not that I don't want him near me. It's because of his brother which I really hate right now but, I love him alot. Even after his brothers mistakes. He walked in without a shirt on. Just a set of grey sweats which was showing his v-bones. I had to admire him. His perfect muscles and bright turquiose eyes and his dark hair which conpliments his skin tone. He is fucking sexy. And perfect. Sadly, I had to make him put on a shirt which mean't that he had to cover himself. Leading him in the wrong way hurts me so much.

The ball of light I always play with was never a light. I always managed to conjour my feelings into a ball of intense power and use it to calm myself down. All my thoughts, feelings and expectaions are stored in it. Then the thought popped up. Was I going to be able to do it at the Pledge? No. I'll be fine. Diego is with me but... Doego knows nothing! Senior year is here. It is now or never.

How long was this going on? Is this why she ran away from me all the time? Shit! Why!? Out of curiosity I turned the page.

Right way♡

I didn't listen to my heart. I am so in love with him. The Senior year officially started and it started with the greatest memory ever. He kissed me. My first kiss is with my first acctual love. Forget the fact that he kissed me. He is my mate and I love that. Fuck his brother, fuck his sister, Fuck them all. My heart was right. My heart belonged to him from the beggining. My heart is his. I might have told him after Senoir year started but it still happened. He loves me too. That night I chose to wear his clothes to sleep in. It was the most comfortable thing thing to sleep in. Sleeping in his arms was amazing and waking up to his warm kisses was the cutest thing ever.

His possessiveness is adorable. He pushed my brother up against a wall for trying to tell me off. I basically live in his dorm room. But, the look on his roomates face qhen he caught us was priceless. I have never been happier.

She has never been happier? What was the happiest moment of her life before this? How was I so stupid? I have been trying to convince her to love me for so long when she already loves me! There was more to this. I saw the wroting on the other page. I turned it over. She doesn't write everyday but she writes specific moments.

Always and Forever♡

He held me infront of him as his brother and my sister yelled. My sister ended up standing  and pouting the whole ritual. He whispered soothing words in Spanish in my ear. He acctually learn't his Spanish for me.  Then his family went balistic when theu found out that I am his mate. It's not like we care.

He want's to mark me. Maybe I should let him mark me and claim me as his. From what I heard, marking a person is painful. I hope mother is right. I hope he pain is worth it and I hope that following my heart is the right choice. It is the only way that we can keep each other safe. The mark. The most precious thing mates can have is their own mark. From one to another.

Is this her heart. She pours everything into this thing. This book. How did I not know about this? Then she walked out.

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Love y'all♡

🐾ALICE_MISERY🐾