(Eddie's POV)
"I found it out, Richie! I found your secret....that's what you were hiding? You lied to me!"
*3 weeks before*
It was the first day of school. I shot up from my bed. "Shit I'm going to be in 8th grade", I thought. I could feel how dry my mouth was. I grabbed my glass of water that I had brought up to my room last night and took a sip. I looked at the clock..."Great", I thought. It was 4 Am...again. Maybe writing like my school counselor from last year said, will work?
Dear Diary,
I'm tired of waking up too early. I've been having dreams lately. Ones I can't explain. I'm scared to tell my mom though. She'll probably either give no fucks about it or give to much of a fuck. Maybe if my dad was still alive then he could help me? It's only 4:20 AM and I'm here fucking writing down my thoughts. That's not cool, I have to be cool. No one will know about this diary......
-Eddie (NOT EDS)
Maybe I could go to sleep now? Well what's the time anyways- Shit! It's 6 AM I have to get ready for school....!
I rushed downstairs to see my mom waiting for me....
"Hey Eddie Bear...why are you in a rush? The bus doesn't come until and hour..."
The way my mom talks to me kinda scares me. She's always in my business and she does it in a obvious way too.
"I don't know mom...I just don't want to be late?"
"Okay....eat your breakfast first before you go get ready...."
"Sure thing mom just let me get ready first"
"I said,
Eat it", she hissed.
"Please let me eat it on the bus I need to get ready the bus leaves soon...."
"Fine"
I ran upstairs nearly about to cry. I don't even know why. She didn't hurt me physically or mentally. She didn't even do anything wrong. It's just how she talks to me. It's creepy and it makes me super uncomfortable and scared. I hate it.......
When I got upstairs I quickly got ready in under 15 minutes (I kept track so I wouldn't be late) and I grabbed my diary and shoved it in my bag ( I might need it later?)
I ran down the stairs. I was walking so fast that I nearly tripped over my own feet and fell down the stairs.
I grabbed my breakfast and went outside. I walked for a minute and then threw it over a fence. Then I ran to my bus stop and I saw my best friend, Richie Tozier.
"Hey Eds!", he said excited.
"You know I don't like it when you call me Eds, Trash mouth. " I said back to him.
"You love it"
Yea of coarse I love it. It so fucking cute when Richie calls me Eds. I don't even know why I act like I hate it. I'm really good at acting though.
"No, I hate it when you call me Eds. You should stop." I said being my stupid self.
(On the bus now)
I decided to sit alone of the bus so I could write in my diary. I needed to.
Dear Diary,
Okay. So big confession.....I might have sorta liked Richie for a few years now and I have never told anyone.....? I don't know there's just something about him.....His stupid nicknames kinda started this I think. Anyways just thought I would tell you, Diary. So you know? So you can know more about me.....Also I don't even know why I put "-Eddie (NOT EDS)" because I love that nick name. I don't know I'm just stupid I guess? Well anyway I got to go. Bye!
-Eddie (NOT EDS)
Oh shit we're already at school! Fuck I hate school....... Well I need to get off the bus like a normal person.
*Eddie gets off the bus*
"So Eds? Why did you want to sit alone? Are we not best friends anymore or something?", Richie said as a joke.
"Haha no....I just wanted to sit alone this morning."I answered.
"Come on Eds we have to go to homeroom!"
"We have the same homeroom this year?"
"I don't know but I fucking hope so!"
"Yea.... same", I thought.
"Well, who do you have?", I asked.
"Mrs. Wilson?"he answered.
"Same!"
"Yes! Okay let's go!" Richie said too excited.
We walked to Mrs. Wilson's classroom to see Stanley Uris and Ben Hanscom? (I think that's his name he's new) sitting around a desk talking to each other. I walked up to a desk with Richie.
"Hey, isn't Ben the new kid?", I asked
(The school we go to is only 7th and 8th graders)
"Yea I think so.....?", Richie answered.
Then I saw Trenton walk into our homeroom. He went to our school last year and he was so annoying. He's by far the dumbest person in this school.
Then something happened that I didn't expect. Trenton looked at Richie and plopped down in the chair right next to him. For some reason it made me super mad. Even though Richie doesn't even know I like him and we're definitely not dating but it just made me so mad. After a minute of silence, my watch beeped. "Thank god", I thought.
"Well, I got to go take my pills", I said.
Richie nodded...I was so mad.
I don't even know why I just was. I stomped to the water fountain and put 2 pills in my mouth and then drank some water. Then I swallowed the pills with the water. I walked to the bathroom across the hall and went in a stall. I locked it and got out my diary.....
Dear Diary,
I'm so mad right now. I don't even know why. I think Trenton likes Richie and that's making me so mad. It's not like me and Richie are dating though. It's not even like he knows I like him. He probably doesn't even like me back anyways. He's probably not even gay......FUCK MY LIFE. I'm so tired of keeping this a secret.
-Eddie (NOT EDS)
I closed my diary and headed back to homeroom. When I was there Mrs. Wilson asked me where I was and why. I handed her a retarded Doctor's note that basically said how I needed to leave class sometimes when my watch beeps so I can take my pills for my "incurable sickness". It's stupid I know.
Then the bell rang. My first class was Science and so was Richie's. I even compared our schedules and here's what they looked like.........
_______________________________
Richie's Mine
Homeroom Homeroom
Science Science
ELA Math
Social Studies Social Studies
Study Hall Study Hall
Lunch Lunch
Math ELA
Gym Gym
Dismissal Dismissal
_______________________________
Yes, they were a bit different but that's a fine. As long as Trenton wasn't bothering us...........
Thanks for reading! Chapter 2 coming soon!
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