Cupid and Psyche (one shot)

I love him..

He loved me.

And I am still after him even though he already left me behind. I am still begging for him to love me back again.

Masochist? No!

In fact, I am the sadist. I am the one who bruised his heart. I am the one who gave him pain instead of happiness he deserved to have. I gave him love, yes. But not the love he must have had. He should have had my love all alone. And that is what I didn't give. I just gave him half of it.

And the other??

I gave it to another.

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Ako si Psyche.Pero sabi ng mga friends ko, I'm more like Psycho. Haha. But it is not a joke. I am really a psycho.

A psycho in love..

A psycho in making decisions about love..

A psycho in playing the thing called love. And now, I am getting psycho about everything I did.

Yeah, I admit. I cheated. Pero mahal ko siya. Promise. kaya nga ginagawa ko ang lahat para lang magkabalikan kami eh. Kahit na.. maging babae na lang niya ako. Kahit na.. ako na lang yung number 2 niya, o kahit number 3 o kahit number 4 pa. Ayos lang sakin. Tutal.. I deserve it.

Kung tutuusin kulang pa tong ginagawa ko kumpara sa lahat ng nagawa niya para sa akin nung kami pa. Kulang pa to kumpara sa ginawa niyang pag- iignore ng mga 'half- chismis' at sa lahat ng naririnig niya nung kami pa. Kahit na.. naririnig na niya na I have someone aside from him, he still stayed beside me and loved me with all of his heart.

I felt that.

Silly me. I just took it for granted.

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May 04. Birthday niya. Tinawagan niya ako na may celebration daw sa bahay nila at siyempre invited ako. And so I said yes. Tapos bigla akong tinawagan ni Justin, labas daw kami. Eh 3:00 pm pa yung party kaya pumayag ako. Nag- joyride kami sa town proper. ang daming nangyari kaya hinde ko na naalala yung dapat kong gawin. Habang kumakain kami ni Justin sa Froots, bigla siyang pumasok. Hindi ko alam yung gagawin ko. He will surely see me dating with other guy. Imbes na dumeretcho sa table namin, he headed at the counter. Gusto ko nang tumakbo.. pero si Justin.. baka makahalata din.

"Oi Psyche!! ^__^" his voice. I slowly turned around.

"Oi! Ah.. " nakita ko may bitbit siyang cake. I was slowly nibbled by my conscience. OO nga pal! Birthday niya ngayon! I'm sooo dumb forgetting today is his birthday and.. he's having a party right now!! Sucks.

"Chocolate cake nga pala yung binili ko. Favorite mo to eh. ^__^"  masaya pa din siya. Parang wala lang sa kanya na may kasama ako.

"Sino siya??" si Justin. I was.. speechless. My heart seemed it stpped pumping. Shit me. Shit me. Ugh.

"Ah oo!! Justin si Carlo. Carlo, Justin nga pala." ganon lang. Alam ko. Dapat I introduce him like..

"Justin si Carlo. Boyfriend ko."

Pero they are technically my boyfriends!! Shit me. Shit me. >___<