The girl with bulimia (Nash grier fanfic) *May Trigger*

Chapter 13

Malina pov
When we get back upstairs I let everyone shower before me. when it's my turn I go to my suitcase and grab my pj that keep me warm. I hear for the bathroom and turn on the shower. I do my thing and throw up in the toilet and flush it. I get undressed and hope in the shower without examine my horrible body. I shower and wash my hair. I hope out and put on leggings sweater scarf necklace and socks and slippers. I come out and put my stuff in my bag and walk out to the balcony. I sit in a chair and think about everything that has gone wrong in my life. hate bullied nobody really cares for me. my crush even hates me. I can't even tell my brother his twin sister thinks about killing herself and starving herself. I get up and hop up onto the rail that is made out of a sort of material the building made out of and sit on it.
I look down thinking about what if I jumped. "what are you doing out here."i hear someone say. I turn and see Nash. "why would you want to know." I say quietly. "maybe because I kind of care that my friends sister is sitting on tide ledge looking down." he says. "yeah sure you hate me I hate me the whole world hates me except for Matt Shawn Kilani Aaron jackboot and my parents." I say tears brimming the rim of my eyes. Nash hops up and sits next to me. "Well I'm trying to care since we are going to be on this tour for a while together, were you thinking about jumping?" He asks. "I can't and won't tell you because I can't trust you." I say. "I understand." he says. I look at him. Something is telling me that something bad is going to happen and that he is just playing my heart. but another is tell me he's changing or that he has a slight bit of care and slowly let him in. "Maybe this will let you try to trust me again like back then and possibly tell me." he says. I mentally roll my eyes so that he won't think about pushing me off the balcony because I rolled my eyes. I would actually like that and then I can end it all. I'm sucked out of my thoughts when I feel a pair if lips on mine. I look at Nash and don't kiss back he pulls away after he sees I didn't kiss back. his face has a little hurt in it but also a little disgust. he gets off the ledge and goes back in. I get off and sit back in the chair. I sit and think again. He kisses me it felt good but I couldn't kiss him back because of how he is hurting. He is probably doing this to hurt me. or maybe he is trying to be nice. either way I'm too hurt and messed up in the head right now to know anything. I'm getting my hopes up too high. I sigh and get up I walk in and wipe the year from my eye and get in bed with Kilani. "night Lina." she says. "night."I say.