I will start when I was just 1&1/2 and my father left us and he was supposed to visit us each weekend but that ended quickly so my dad abandoned us and I haven't seen him since. so then my mother startedbhanging around with her brother who would beat her and when I got a little older he would make me give him blowjobs when I cried I kept that in for 8 years to myself I dis not tell one person when I turned 9 I got bullied really badly at school and it just got worse and worse and the teachers didn't do shit.
so then when I was still 9 we moved to nanaimo and it didn't get any better but before we moved to nanaimo we live in this place that got robbed all the time I wasn't scared at all so we moved to nanaimo with my mom's new boy friend and the bullying got worse they called me so many names and physically and verbally bullied me and I was to scared to tell anyone well then in grade 7 I started to cut and each one got deeper and deeper and at the last couple of months in the year I got diagnosed with depression and anxiety so if people were to say stuff to me I would believe them more each time i know believe that I am ugly and fat but also anerexic and I'm a bitch attention whore and I got told to kill myself multiple times I am only in grade 8 know and I believe things will get better there's a boy I like who likes me back and I have some friends sometimes I heat really depressed and the don't understand and I have had friends that say "if you slit your wrist your of my friends list" so there the kind of friends I can't tell shit to sometimes I'll sit down and just cry and I only have that one boy that will sit next to me and everyday he gives me the best hugs and I know anytime no matter what he will always .be there for a shoulder for me to cry on and I want to say if you read this I will post what happened in .mt day at the end of the day and not every day will I do it cuz I know I'm not going to make a promise I won't keep but if I try to commit suicide again and I say it please support me because I feel like no one does and now I feel like I'm begging for sympathy :(
