WHITE ELEPHANT

I. A NEW BEGINNING

November 2014

White Elephant,

Hello. I honestly don't know what to say...I can't believe it's going to happen anytime soon. The city is too small for us as the world had been..I'm a bit afraid, afraid to see you when I'm not ready..I'm ashamed of the stupid things I did for you, for love.

No, I'm not ashamed. I can't be ashamed of the things that I considered a product of my bravery. The things I will never have the courage to do when I'm not in love..madly in love. Besides, you don't have any idea of the things that I did and I guess you will never know.

I don't know if it's a good thing or not. Maybe good because the battle is already over and there are things that are better left unsaid. Yes,unsaid. They say that you have to let the person you love know what you feel. I say, not all the time. It's because everything happens for a reason.

I realized that being a coward isn't always bad..sometimes it happens for a good purpose and I'm glad that in loving you, I have been. Had I been too brave, maybe you won't be in the path that you should be. Surrendering a battle doesn't always mean we lost. I surrendered the battle so both of us would win and I think we did.

It's been almost a year since the last time I talked to you. I could still remember when you told me that once a woman got married, the guy has to forget everything about that woman...even their friendship. I did not agree with you that time but now, I understand.

Forgive me if I have to forget everything about you. It's hard for me to do this but it's the best thing for me to do. You will be like a beautiful dream..yeah,just a dream..<3