What is love? (Short story)

What is love?

    Jess, what a beautiful girl, but she doesn't see it. Her long black hair laying nicely across her back, headphones in her ears drowning out her thoughts. She keeps her room cold,  so she can crawl into a whole bunch of blankets so she can feel more safe and secure, like a mother's warm embrace. Jess' room is kind of small, but she has room for the important things like, clothes and comfort. Her closet is full of random things that she keeps around just because she doesn't know if she could live without it, even though she hasn't used it in years. Jess sits in her room blaring music into her ears, closing her eyes daydreaming of a better day.

Jess has been having a rough time in life recently for a few different reasons. Jess is in a relationship that she doesn't like, they were friends for 3 years before they started dating so she doesn't want to break up with him, she is not happy. Yes, it has only been about a month but she is not happy because nothing has progressed. Jess is only caring about herself and treating it like she is single which is not fair for her boyfriend Drew. You can find her talking to multiple guys, just so she can have the attention on her, while talking to a bunch of guys is the only way she can feel self worth.

    As the day went on Jess was going over to her boyfriend Drews house. While she was walking up to the door she felt a pit in her stomach big and overflowing her body with guilt. She kept thinking over and over again, "Why did I do this? I'm just causing him more pain in the long run. What is wrong with me?" As she walks up to the door, Jess realizes she might not be ready for commitment like she thought she was.

"Hey gorgeous!" Drew smiles while opening the door and kisses Jess on the cheek.

"Hey what's up?" Jess was looking down at the ground, looking up slowly to shoot her boyfriend a fake smile as she walks into his house.

Jess, while setting her things down and taking a seat on the couch, thought, "this is too much to handle, I have to tell him that I don't think we should be dating right now. I can't commit right now, everything is just crazy, I'm not happy and I think it will be better if we just stay friends, nothing is coming from it at all."

"What do you want to do?" Drew smiles and sits next to Jess on the couch.

"Let's just watch a movie, I can't be here too long, I have a lot of things to get done tonight when I get home."

"Okay cool." Drew turns on the TV and sits next to Jess in silence. "Are you sure everything is okay? You know you can talk to me if there is anything going on. But I won't pressure you to."

"Yeah I'm okay."

"Okay."

As the night went on Drew and Jess were just sitting in an uncomfortable silence. Drew knew Jess was acting off but being the kind person he is, he let it slide.

"Finally, it's time to go." Jess thought while she got up and grabbed her things. It's not that Jess didn't enjoy spending time with Drew, It was just all the guilt that had set in and made her feel gross. The pit in her stomach growing with every breath she would take. Finally she had enough and just had to get home.

"I'll see you later, I had a good time!" Jess smiled lightly and gave Drew a hug on her way out the door.

"Bye Jess! I'll see you later!" Drew said and walked back to his bedroom, contemplating what she was thinking about that could've made her in a bad mood and walked out so quickly. Was it him?

Drew decided to not put much thought into it because maybe it was just a bad day for Jess. Everyone has bad days, right?

Jess laid in bed, music blaring in her ears, wishing for a better day.

    Maybe today will be better than the day before! Maybe today Jess will finally have the courage to tell Drew how she really feels, not all relationships have to be explored romantically, and this is one of them.