Only You

Riley P.O.V

Audrey: hey girl where you at?

I look down at my phone, I was supposed to be at her place hours ago instead I'm too damn drunk to even move. I scroll through more unread and read messages and end up finding myself rereading me and Cash's messages, times were so much simpler back then... I miss him so much but he hurt me in the worst way possible, he promised he changed and didn't. And now... Well now I'm a drunk mess.
I slowly pick the bottle of vodka up and take more swigs feeling it burn down my throat I drink it till it's gone and the bottle rolls out of my hands on to the ground. I roll over and groan feeling the vomit sneak up my throat I try to get up and make if but can't and throw up on the floor next to my bathroom door.
I groan in pain and walk back over to my bed, laying down  clenching my stomach.

I turn off the lamp and close my eyes to sleep but I can't, I end up just tossing and turning uncomfortably through out the night, sobbing into my pillows crying out for Cash and cursing his name. I miss him, I miss us. I miss how we used to be and how sweet he was, how kind. How loving he was. But now he's a completely different person and he doesn't even know who I am anymore, frankly I don't even think he knows who he is anymore. Maybe we just don't know eachother, perhaps maybe never even did.
Before I know it the sun's coming up and I have to get out of bed but I don't, I roll over again and fall asleep for a few hours dreaming of how life once was and how happy I used to be and in love. I wake up to the same nightmare everyday.

I wake up again around 5pm and officially get up, I throw legging and a tank top on and brush out my hair. I go to take a sip out of my vodka but it's empty I also notice the vomit and groan in disgust. I walk to the bathroom to grab carpet cleaner and clean up my mess.

I put shoes and sunglass on and head out the door to take a walk around the block, also make a liquor store stop for some booze. Maybe go to a party or bar who knows? Fuck it.
I get down the block and run into Gerald, I haven't seen him or anyone in awhile, I've been MIA lately..

"Hey Riley, how's it going?" He walks closer to me
"Oh you know just taking a walk, I'm good, good. How are you today G?" I ask trying to be casual.
He looks closer at me and gives me a look of pity.
"Do you wanna grab some food? You look like you could use a bite to eat" he offers smiling a little.
I scratch my head and think.
"Yeah, yeah sure" I say
"Follow me"
He leads me to his car and unlocks it letting me in.
He revs the engine and off we go.

My stomach hurts form binge drinking for the last few weeks and partying. So I lay my head on the seatbelt, looking out the window.

"I don't mean to sound rude but you smell like a bar room floor" he says looking at me with concern
"I'm fine, really. I was just...out all night and haven't slept much" I say rubbing my face to wake up, trying to sound normal.
"Ri, if you wanna talk you can always hit me up, let a man take care of you, ya know" he says and places his hand on my thigh smirking at me.
"You with Cash?" He asks moving his hand up.
"No, I'm all about wild meaningless sex at the moment" I say and open my legs for him.
He nods "good" he slides his hand up and down my thigh teasing me.
"What happened with y'all?" He asks.
I flash back to that night I saw the pictures, how he didn't even say anything, me walking out.
"Just didn't work out.." I say swallowing back my tears.
"You'll be okay.." he removes his hand off my thigh and smiles at me.
"Thank you G" I say trying to smile.

We get to a restaurant and walk inside.
We get a small both and sit down looking over the menu, I see a group of people looking at me and talking, suddenly I see there's paparazzi here too.
Oh no, not now!
The fans rush up to me and Gerald's table and ask me a bunch of questions.

"Oh my god Riley! When your new single coming out?"

"What happened to you and Cash?"

"Did you hear Cash's new song?"

All they say is Cash and music, it makes me shudder in my seat and paparazzi click photos of me and Gerald, I'm going to lose it.

"Hey guys back up! Leave her alone" Gerald stands up yelling at the crowd pushing them back the crowd even more the talking grows louder, more pictures snap, Gerald's yelling...it's all chaotic.
I  get up pushing the crowd out of my way, walking out the building. I can't stop crying and I just lose it outside, I'm running and I don't even know where till I hear Gerald yelling my name and his arms around me restraining me.
"Riley! Riley come on! It's me! It's G!" He says putting my head in his chest trying to calm me down.
"I....can't" I sob
"Let's get out of here, I'm so sorry Riley" he leads me into his car and we just drive.
The ride is so silent and awkward.

"I need a drink." I say
"Riley I don't think-"
"I said I need a fucking drink!" I cut him off
"Okay, okay" he says calmly
"Let's go to my place, we can chill out there" he adds
I nod.

We get to his place and he leads me inside closing the door behind him. He lives in a nice mansion, very modern and amazing interior. I take a seat on the couch and he goes into his liquor cabinet.
"What would you like?" He asks
"Vodka" I smile
He nods and pours me some inside a cup with ice inside of it, he pours himself some too and sits next to me turning the TV on.
Bringing the vodka with him.
We drink and I'm getting tipsy.
Gerald brings out a blunt and we start smoking getting high, I sit on top of him and start kissing his neck, he runs his hand up and down my body taking my shirt off, he flips me on my back and gets on top of me taking his shirt off too, we grind against eachother, I can feel his hardness and how much he wants me.
He takes my pants & underwear off and starts eating me out I throw my head back and moan,
He looks up at me and inserts a finger inside me while eating me out making me bite my lip, this is so hot.
He takes his pants off and gets inside of me going hard, it makes me moan loud as hell, he grabs my legs and puts them on his shoulders making me scream louder. It feels so damn good I can't stop cumming.
I get on top and start riding him like there's no tomorrow watching his face and how he bites his lips and moans a little bit. But.. It's nothing like... No don't even think of him..don't.
Gerald tells me he wants to hit it from behind so I let him, he pounds and pounds me and pulls out cumming on my back.

"Whew!" He shouts and sits back.
He wipes the cum off me and I get dressed. I take a big swig out of the vodka bottle check my phone and see it's later than I thought.. I wanna go home.

"Hey G, I gotta go home." I say
"Okay, let me drive you" he smiles at me.
We get our shoes on and leave his place.
I tell him where to go and off we go. The drive is quick and I'm home.
"Call me okay?" He says
"I will" I say
"If you need to talk or...anything just hit me up" he winks
"Thank you, I'll see ya soon" I smile

I get out and walk into the apartment building. I walk up stairs and get to my place, the door handle is open and I walk in cautiously to see what's going on.
"H...hello?" I flip the light on but see no one in the living room so I slowly walk into my kitchen no one, this is weird. I creep down to my room and see a shadow, I swallow back my fear and open the door and see...... Cash.