• Last Kiss • ~ • Tom Holland X Reader •

The Last Time

This was when it finished. It's still something haven't processed that it really happened, like I keep thinking it was some sort of bad dream and I'll wake to see Tom laying beside me. Holding me tight in his muscly arms, that have made me incredibly safe. But no I wake every morning cold as ice, feeling completely stranded in the middle of winter.

It was December 25th 2018. My family kinda got back together, on the some occasion there would be a fight but today we were all trying to hold it in. We were at the Hollands place setting up the Christmas lunch / dinner, everyone was walking every wear  and nervous vibes were plastered in the air, especially around me. I was nervous to see Tom for the first time since he started acting his second spider-man movie, far from home. He said that he was coming home today and i couldn't wait for his arrival.

"God Y/N keep it in your pants" Sam said laughing, noticing my fidgety fingers circling my dress and my nervous face.

"I'm sorry, I just can't wait to see him Sam. Its been months and I miss him so much" I cooed and then laughed. Sam rolled his eyes and grabbed the ham from the stove. "That looks nice by the way"

"Your not having any" He replied back quickly smirking and earning an eye roll from me.

I checked the time for the one hundredth time again, realising he should be here very soon. "I'm gonna go check if everyone is ready, Toms gonna be here soon" I left the amazing smelling kitchen and into the back yard where everyone was. My dad was having a beer with Dom, Nikki and mum designing the table, Harry taking pictures and with Paddy trying to help him.

"Hey Y/N come here!" Harry yelled out making all eyes appear on me for a quick second. I walked over wondering why Harry called me over. "Look at this" he shoved the camera into my hands. I saw a beautiful photo of Tom and I on the tower bridge holding hands and looking at each other with angel eyes.

"Harry that's amazing! can you send that to me when you have time?" I said pleading and handing back Harry's camera.

"Sure, I was going to anyway" we both laughed. "You seem really nervous Y/N. Why?"

"Because Toms coming and I haven't seen hims in months. I have literally missed him so much"

"Well i think if you turn around I don't think you'll have to wait any longer" Harry smiled cheekily and nodded behind me. I turned around in a second to see a cute looking Tom with his hands in his pockets and smiling at me.

"Tommy!" I yelled and ran into his arms, "I've missed you so much!" we both kiss.

"So have I darling" he drops me back down. "Hey I've gotta talk to you about something" I nodded and Tom grabbed my hand. He pulled me into his room and closed the door. "We can't do this anymore" for some reason the words he said sounded muffled. I chuckled thinking Tom said a joke.

"beg your pardon?" I said still chuckling.

"We can't be together anymore" Toms face was straight. no emotion. But my smile faded, confusion flew in my mind. "I can't do long distance"

"But your back" my breathing started to deepen.

"Yeah but long distance has made me loose feelings. I'm sorry Y/N. We can still be friends" my mind was still wrapped around the 'we cant do this anymore' part. I couldn't believe my ears right now. Why would Tom do this? I thought he loved me? "I know this may be hard, but we just can't do this anymore Y/N. I'm really sorry. I am" gloss covered mine and Toms eyes.

"Kids! Dinner's ready!" Nikki yelled from down stairs. It didn't take my mind off anything.

"I-I. After nearly seven years?" I stuttered. A tear trickles down my cheek. I ran back down the stairs wiping off the evidence of crying. I heard Tom coming behind me.

"Finally. Can we start?" Paddy moaned. Nikki tells him yes as I sit down next to Tom. I stared at my food emotionless, while Tom grabbed his own. I felt betrayed, dumb founded. How could he do this? And at Christmas? I got up from the table and excused myself. I ran into the bathroom tears falling carelessly down the dress as I sat down in the bathtub. Was this a dream? Am i going to walk up at any moment? Was Tom playing around? I thought.

"Y/N?" Tom knocked on the door. Again his voice sounded muffled, I didn't want to talk to him at all. "Y/N let me in please?" I rolled my eyes and got up from the bathtub and to the door. I opened it.

"How could you do this? You didn't only loose feelings I know there's something else!" I yelled at Tom, knowing that everyone else outside can probably hear me.

"Works been so bloody stressful" tears found their way to Toms cheeks. "Long term wasn't doing me well, so I kinda, fuck- I cheated on you. And I didn't want to lie to you Y/N"

I gulped down the hard rock that was stuck in my throat so I could talk. "Wow. So I wasn't doing you justice? That's cool. Well I hope you take care of whoever cheated on me with Thomas" I pushed past him and headed to the back yard. "mum? dad? Can we go?" I asked sounding heartbroken. They shot up from their seats and looked at me with sympathy eyes.

"Definitely sweetheart" they got their things and said bye. I turned around to Tom standing in the doorway. He moved out of the way and let us through to the front door. And that was the last I saw of him.

We left silently, no word in the car. Mum looked at me a few times concerned. We got home and I texted Harrison saying we broke up. After that I took my dress off, put comfy clothes on and put in my earphones and Last Kiss by Taylor swift played. More tears fell down. The song reminded me of how this relationship went.

"I still remember the look on your face, lit through the darkness at 1:58. Words that you whisper just us to know. You told me you loved me, so why did you go... away" I crawled into a crying mess on my bed. "After nearly seven years" I said again.