• Last Kiss • ~ • Tom Holland X Reader •

Now

I started crying. The same song came on again. "I think I just made it worse for myself" I said covering my mouth with my hands.

"No you didn't, you let it all out. That's what you should always do Y/N" Lara my roommate turned off the music and hugged me. "Anyways how about we go to that party tonight and you can get your mind of that idiot of a guy" I nodded and thought about what she said, which kinda hurt. Tom may have been an idiot but it only felt that only I could call him that nobody else.

"Yeah sure" Lara went into her own room and got changed for the night. I got up and looked in the mirror. Seeing my eyes that were bloodshot and the big shirt that was Toms I had on was creased to death. I smelt it and the sent of him disappeared months ago. "Why is it only now?" That I'm realising I still have feelings for this idiot.

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An hour passed and I got ready but I only wore some dark blue skinny jeans, Toms shirt and black and white converse. I could not be bothered to get dressed up like Lara did. "Finally. C'mon" she dragged my arm out the door and into her small car. Lara tried starting a conversation but all it ended up is me just humming in agreement so Lara gave up, knowing that she wouldn't get past my depressive state. I looked out the window, watching everything small and big go by. The rain hitting the window made it seemed more depressing. Why does it rain when things are sad? It's like the weather knows when someone is upset so it makes things worse. The car stopped and Lara put it in park. I got out like a kid who didn't want to go to school. Despite I actually kinda wanted to come with Lara but I just had this voice in my head that told me not to go. Something was going to happen. We walked inside and greeted some of Lara's friends and her boyfriend Zach. He wasn't to bad, for someone like him. He was nice to me and really the only nice guy except for Harrison but I haven't seen him in ages. And I wanted to see Harrison again. I wanted to see them all again.

"So Y/N how have you been?" Zach asked sitting next to me with a beer in his hand.

"Been better. What about you?" I asked taking a sip of water from the fridge of this strange house, that looks familiar.

"Not to bad" It went silent, like the vibe bouncing from me didn't want Zach there.

"Aye Flyn!" I turned around to a familiar voice. I saw Harrison dancing up and down with a drink in his hand. It made me smile seeing him again. "Get us another!" He started to walk my way, not noticing me.

"Harrison!" I yelled and he turned around.

"Y/N! My god I haven't seen you in ages!" his arms embraced me and the sent from him brought back good memory's.

"I know. I kinda forgot that it was your birthday. I feel so bad" Harrison acted as if he were hurt, then laughed. "Happy Birthday looser"

"That's okay. Thanks" he budged my shoulder. "I understand ya, you've been under a lot of pressure and it really shows right now" Harrison points to Toms shirt. I covered it up like I was in a bikini feeling insecure. "It's alright Y/N. Hey how about you have this and take your mind of him for a bit huh?" He hands me his half empty drink. I took it in one swig. Gulping it down like I just had medicine. I winced at the pain at how strong it was. "Come on. Let's dance" Harrison took out his hand and dragged me into the dance floor and got me another drink. Everyone around didn't care what was happening, they were all just having fun. I got more and more drinks that I don't even realise what is happening. I'm just having fun.

Toms POV:

"Hey babe, come dance with me" Willow said holding my hand and pulling it into the dance floor. I rolled my eyes mentally and nodded. I didn't really want to be here, I mean it is Harrison's birthday and I'm more than happy for him but just somethings going to happen and it's not going to be good. Willow got us onto the dance floor, wrapped her hands around my neck and leant her head on my chest swaying to the beat of the slow music. I looked out in front of us and I swear to god I saw a shirt that looked a lot like mine and I don't have that shirt anymore. I tried looking for it again but they seemed to disappear on me. Harrison appeared instead and looked at me confused. I tilt my head at him.

"Looks like your looking for someone" Harrison yells over the music. Willow takes her head off my chest and smiles at Harrison.

"What Tommy who?" Willow said demanding. Harrison rolls his eyes.

"Just someone I thought I recognise" I replied.

"Who's that?"

"I thought it was Harry with a girl" I lied.

"Oh big brother stuff" she laughs.

"Mate can I talk to you alone?" Harrison asks and Willow holds onto my arm tightly, not wanting to leave.

"Whatever you need to say to Tom, you can say to both of us" she kisses my cheek. I looked up at Harrison scared of telling Willow off.

"Well this is mate to mate stuff. Y'know people have friends right and those friends need to tell their friends stuff that their girlfriends don't need to know" Willow flicks her hair and scoffs.

"Well Tommy will tell me anyway. He's told me everything" she leaves with a flick of her hair and walks to her friends. Harrison looks at me with dissatisfaction in his eyes.

"Don't say it mate. There's good in her I know"

"I still don't understand how after cheating with her you lost feelings for literally the best human being on earth" We start to walk the other way.

"Well Harrison, if your so burdened by it why don't you ask her out!" I yelled out straight away, not even thinking.

"Because she's like a bloody sister to me, and I hate what you did to her!" He barked back. I said nothing, I didn't want to. He was right, how did that happen. But Willow is so attached that she won't leave me alone. I can't go anywhere without her with me. "Anyway before you blew up that's what I wanted to talk about with you" My eyes shot up at Harrison. "She's here, like at the party" That's who I saw. She was wearing my shirt? I thought she hated me? "Dude are you gonna say something or what!?"

"Sorry! I don't care Harrison! Seriously! It's not like I still have feelings for her!" I lied. I do. I shouldn't have never broke it. I shouldn't have cheated.

"Okay, so that's who you weren't trying to find. It actually was a girl with Harry?" Harrison said sarcastically.

I rolled my eyes and nodded. "Yes!" Again I lied.

"Woah okay and here I thought you might have changed your mind" Harrison turned back around into the house and left me outside. I sat down on the chairs that were left outside to rot.

"What have I done?" I ask myself falling into my hands. I sit there for a bit but then walk back inside actually seeing Y/N in my sight. She looks beautiful in my shirt and also sad. Everything falls back in my mind, from when we couldn't stop looking at each other in the movies to me kissing her so she would stop worrying about her parents. "Nearly 7 years" I repeat her words. I shake my head getting everything out of my mind and walk back inside the house, still a lot of people are dancing and it's nearly one in the morning. I see her having the time of her life, smiling brighter and brighter. I go over to her but Willow catches my arm.

"Where you going baby" she looks me up and down and leans in. I step back.

"Not now Willow" I push past her and I see Y/N knocked to the ground. I pick her up.

"Woah" she said laying half on the ground.

"C'mon I'll help you" I place my arm around her waist and her arm around my neck. I walked up to the closest bedroom which was Harrison's and placed her on the bed.

"Can't I go back down?" She had a wooziness in her voice. I laughed remembering what her being drunk was like.

"No, you'll fall down again" I took off her shoes and pants so it would be comfier for her to sleep. She put her head down on the pillow and went to sleep. I watched her for a bit until Willow started to call my name, so I looked for a pen and paper and write something so Y/N can know what happened. Before I closed the door and walked up to her sleeping body and gave her a kiss on the forehead. "Good night love" I whispered and left.