When Our Eyes Met (On-Going)

Prologue

Dear diary,

I'm Cleissy Vinezo. My own mother gave me to my aunt Sally when she knew she couldn't give me the life she wanted for me. In fact, it was just a week when she finally made up her mind and gave me without having a second thought?

She was only 18 when she got pregnant and my father was only 19 to have me and their both still young to take great responsibility of me.

They didn't even finish their studies yet so how would they sustain me. Ni wala pa nga atang napapatunayan ang mga magulang ko kaya paano nila ako bubuhayin.
The only way they have is to give me away, like a poor cat abandoned by their owners.

How could be so easy for them to did that. How ridiculous.

Sobrang nakakalungkot isipin dahil hinahanap ko parin ang sagot sa mga bakit. I know I already have tita Sally as my mom and I actually have a family but there's something missing in me and its never ever been completed.

It's like I am searching for something that's not capable of being found. My young heart longing for something yet its not been filled with anything to be full. Naaawa ako sa sarili ko dahil di ko malaman kung bakit di ko makuha ang kaisa isa kong hiling.

I am rich, the roots of my family were rich, definitely I can have anything I wanted. But its pointless since I didn't even get mine.

I have knew that my mother was once a stubborn in her parents and so not surprisingly she have me early. Lolo told me she always secretly went outside with her friends, and there was a day my mom hitted one of their maids just to escape. She did not show for a week and that was the worst thing that my mom had done.

Not a good example.

I don't know much about my father but Lolo told me that he's as poor as rat. Wala daw sa kalingkingan ang yaman nila sa amin. Lolo doesn't want him for her obviously. He also said that my mom can't even introduced my father to them because for sure he will force to severed their connections right away.

But why my father was so afraid to take the consequences he knew would happen. Why he didn't give a try to say what's his intention for my mom to change a bit of lolo's mind. Why he didn't fight for mom? even for me.

I wonder maybe I was just a mistake?

They don't really like me in their life. I was just a piece of stain that unintendedly tinted on their masterpiece art. I really am nothing to them.

I would rather be poor but happily satisfied than rich but not contented. Frankly, a coward like them doesn't deserve me neither I to them. I am very much disappointed.

-ItzIssy

"Haayyy." nagstretch ako ng katawan at sinarado ko na ang notebook ko at nilock na ito.

I felt kinda relieve when I finally wrote what's on my mind.

This is Aman, my diary. I write my thoughts and whatever I do, at itong mahabang sinulat ko tungkol sa akin ay labis na nagtanggal ng onting pait sa nararamdaman ko.

It really helps me a lot to express more of my inmost feelings rather than be verbalize.

Wala akong ate o kuya man lang para maibahagi itong mga hinanakit ko.

I shared it to mommy Sally but then she's always busy to even make time to console me whenever I had my dark hours. As well as dad.

But I understand that.

All the hardworks they did was for me. To give the best they could ever give. All the things I wanted materially. That no one not even my real parents could afford.

Mommy Sally is an infertile, gusto nilang mag ampon pero noong binigay ako ng nanay ko, ako nalang ang inalagan nila at tinuring na isang totoong anak.

She treated me like her real daughter as if she really had me out from her womb. She has the quality of being a mother yet couldn't bear a child.

Sana nga siya nalang ang pinagkalooban na magkaanak. People like her deserves it than the others who takes oppurtunity for granted.

Really bitterness is visible in me.

I couldn't help but to detest my parents for what they did.

Yes. I am content in my family now but I just wanted to know why.

Why my mother gave me.

Why my father leave us.

Why there's something creeping in my mind that finding all the reason why?

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(A/N: This is my first time so sana pagpasensiyahan niyo kung may mga errors or kung medyo lame. Hoping y'all like it. Doing the best to be better!)