Only You

Riley

"Get. Out." I say gritting my teeth
"Riley...let's just talk" he says putting his hands up, carefully walking towards me. I step back.
"Go away!" I raise my voice just enough to warn him.
"Riley please let me just talk to you!" He begs, yelling at me.
"Get out of my fucking house, now!" I yell and practically man handle him, throwing him across the room.
"Riley! Come on!" He tries to fight me back to stay. I push him and yell "Get out! I don't want to talk to you! I don't want to see you!"
"Please, I love you!" He yells. I stop fighting and gasp, I start tearing up but fight myself from letting them fall. I turn around, facing away from him and let them fall. I love him too, but I can't forgive him, I can't forget. I can't do this anymore with him. I'm done..
"Go." I say softly, forcing myself to speak. He backs up and just looks hurt. He swallows back his tears looking away and nods.
"Aight." He throws his arms up in the air and back down to his waist. Brushing past me and walking out the apartment, slamming the door behind him.
I stand there and just let everything that has happened process in my head, I nod when everything hits me. Wow this is really over. This is really how it ends.. he cheats, doesn't even explain himself, I leave and haven't seen him in almost a month. Then today I do and now.... well now he's gone.
I gasp and just bust out crying my eyes out, sobbing hardcore gasping for air. I clench my sides because it hurts how hard I'm crying and how much pain I'm in.

I hear knock on the door and pull myself together. I'm hoping it's Cash but at the same time hoping it's not I get up and walk over to the door and open it. It's Audrey.
"Where the fuck have you been?" She asks, arms crossed and concerned. She barges in.
"I just--" she cuts me off and says
"Look at your place Riley! Empty bottles everywhere!? Smell of vomit, liquor and weed!? Rooms trashed.." she scoffs and rolls her eyes. "I mean have you even open the blinds or even seen any sunlight? Like...at all!??" I just Look down and cry.
"What is going on with you? You look like shit, you reek, you've been MIA for a month....what's been up?" She asks and I just start yelling.
"Oh my god.. shut the FUCK UP! I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT AUDREY!! OKAY? I DON'T CARE!!! I DO NOT FUCKING CARE!! I JUST.....I just...I don't care, I don't...." I start sobbing uncontrollable and she throws her arms around me, hugging me tight while I have a breakdown.

"Shh, what's going on Ri?" She whispers to me I sniffle and sigh
"Cash... Cheated on me... In LA hell even here... So I've been here, I've been there, I've been fucking everywhere..." I sob
"I feel so lost.."
She hugs me tighter and shushes me "It's okay. Come on, get up." She helps me up and walks me over to the bathroom.
"Now take a shower and wash yourself, get dressed and I'll be in your living room.

I turn the water on to the perfect temperature and step inside. I wash my hair and body (which I really needed) and just stand there letting the hot water shower over me. I need to get it together, get back to normal and happy....but I can't. I feel the tears streaming down my face and let them fall as a sit in the tub sobbing. I just want my life back.
I want everything back...
I collect myself and crawl out of the shower turning the water off.

I get myself dressed and walk k to the living room where Audrey is waiting for me with two fresh coffees.

"Riley...you've been going off the wagon lately and I'm honestly scared for you.. about your health. Both mental and physical..." She pushes a pamphlet to me
"I think you need rehab"
I I have deeply and sigh knowing she's right
"But before you say anything it WILL be on the down low and no one will hear about it not even 'he who shall not be named' just..." I cut her off
"Okay. I'll go." I say not fighting back
"W-wait really?" She asks shocked
"Audrey... It's gone on too long... Im hurt and drinking every day to where I can't even walk or talk, I feel sick. I feel sick in my head and.... I need you to drive me there. Take me and make sure I go.." I say with years rolling down my face.

"I'll go to rehab."