"LIVE THE MOMENT"

EPILOUGE

She's really gone, but I know in my heart she'll never be. Naihatid na namin sa huling hantungan si Alazne. I still can't accept this fucking truth. The fucking truth that she's gone, because it's so fucking hurt.

Nakaupo at tulala ako ngayon habang patuloy sa pag-agos ang mga luha ko na naguunahan sa pagbagsak sa aking malulungkot na mata. Simula ng araw na iyon, parang tuluyan na ring nawala ang pag-asa kong mabuhay pa. I don't know how to fucking start again. And I don't know if I still can. How? How would I start living again if she takes my hope to live with her when she left.

"Kai anak let's go?" mahinhing sabi ng mommy ko, dumating ang mga magulang ko nang malaman nila ang mangyari kay Alazne. And I really appreciates it.

Kahit hindi ko pa naipapakilala si Alazne sa kanila ay nalaman na nila ito agad dahil sa mga kwento ng mga katulong namin. I didn't know that they still care for me, at botong-boto pa sila kay Alazne. And it makes my hearts melt more.

Please baby, please, come back...

"Alam mo bang hindi magugustuhan ni Alazne kapag nalaman niyang nagkaka-ganiyan ka ng dahil sa kaniya?" singit ng mommy ni Alazne na kasalukyang inaalalayan ni tito. I know they also feel the same at mas malala pa ito sa nararamdaman ko ngayon. Truths really hurts, its so fucking hurts.

"A-alam ko po 'yon t-tita pero, h-hindi ko lang po t-talaga matanggap na wala na siya. Before she left, she's still thinking about me and I feel so stupid about it. She's so kind, siya itong may sakit p-pero," pahikbi-hikbi kong sagot na hindi ko pa natapos. I feel so helpless.

"I hope maka-recover ka rin anak, I know not now but maybe soon? right? masayang tinanggap ni Alazne ang kinahantungan niya and I know masaya na siya ngayon, so cheer up Zayn" tita said trying to cheer me up, as they walk away frow where I am.

"Mom, Dad mauna na rin kayo susunod nalang ako" I said to my mom and dad without even looking at them.

"I'm just here Kai, be strong son" my dad said in his usual authoritative tone, as he tapped my shoulders.

My tears starts to fall again continuously. I'm now alone, whithout you baby. I hope my short existence made a mark on you Alazne, Because on me I can say that you are the best thing that's ever been mine in my entire life.

"Mei Alazne, as what's your name means. Beautiful miracle, you're the most beautiful miracle that's ever been happen in my life. I love you baby" I said as I stand. I may not know how and when but I know you'll always be my side and you'll help me to rise again.

F L A S H B A C K

"I don't love you anymore Zayn, so please stop chasing me anymore" Reign said, that made my heart tore into pieces.

"Reign babe please, I'd rather fix this mess with you one hundred times, than go start over with someone new. So please come back to me babe" I said begging him to come back.

I don't know why we end at this point, but Im going to do everything just for her to be back again. Its still worth saving, its still not the end.

"Please babe, pick up the phone please" I just keep on typing her number then call her again and again. Memorize ko ang number niya pero hindi iyon naka save sa phone ko, so everytime I call her I'll type her number.

I was about to type her number again when I accidentally touch the number seven instead of number eight. As it starts ringing I heard a cute sound coming from a phone and it looks like a ring tone of someone here.

And I confirmed that I was right when one of my classmates stand as Miss Roxas glare at her, "Ahyyy! Pasensiya na po, Miss Roxas hindi ko po kasi napatay ang aking cellphone" she said. At hanggang sa natapos ang klase na iyon ay hindi ko na natanggal pa ang paningin ko sa kaniya.

Sumugal ako sa isang bagay na walang kasiguraduhan, I planned that Alazne will pretend as my girl just to get Reign back to me. But I didn't know that I'll stuck with Alazne and start falling for her. Natalo ako sa sugal na sinimulan ko hindi kay Reign kung hindi kay Alazne.

At first I can't accept it, hindi ko matanggap na nahulog na ako ng tuluyan sa kaniya. In my eyes she's so damn innocent, and its not my type. But as our pretend thingy continue, I did accept it and make him my real girl.

Buong akala ko masaklap na ang kalagayan ko pero mas masaklap pa pala ang pinagdadaanan niya. The girl I love had been through in so much pain, and I don't even have a fucking clue about it.

"Please Fatima, answer me where the hell is Alazne?" I said almost begging to Fatima just to let me know where the hell is Alazne! Its been days and she's not attending to our class anymore. Im so fucking worried that day as Fatima clearly told me everything.

I don't know, I really don't siguro kung nalaman ko lang ng mas maaga hindi siguro ganito ang mangyayari. I could have help her.

E N D  OF  F L A S H B A C K

A years later...

"Its been a years Zayn, you should start dating someone" tita said, Alazne's mom.

"No tita, I can't and I'm not going to. I promised to her that no matter what she's still the one. Even if she's gone already, she'll forever stay in my heart tita" I responded

Kasalukuyan kaming nasa harap ng puntod ni Alazne, Its her twelve Death Anniversary. I already did accepted it, but I promised to her. Tita always saying that to me, but I just can't do that. And I'll never going to, when the day I started to love her, I already can't imagine myself loving someone again. Kahit pa hindi ako nangako sa kaniya, siya pa rin, siya at walang nang iba pa.

"We'll go Zayn, always take care okay" tita said I just nodded then they start walking.

"Baby, I miss you so damn much and Im still fallin' for you everytime" I said trying to hold back my tears.

"I know you're here baby, I just want you to know that there is so many stars in the sky but I love watching the moon when I fuck'n miss your innocent smile" I said again. Then my phone suddenly ring.

"Emergency po Doc may itinakbo po ditong patient. Its Congenital heart disease (sakit sa puso mula sa pagkapanganak)" the caller said that made my heart pump fast.

That's the cause of her death...

"Okay Im coming, prepare everything as soon as I get there" I said then hang up the phone.

"Baby, I'll got this promise. I have to go, always remember that I really really love you" I said as I kissed her name written in front of me.

I am now a successful Cardiologist, A doctor of heart. I may not do anything before to save the heart of the girl I love, but now I can assure to everyone that I'll do everything just to save my patient.

I love you baby, my forever baby. I am now a successful and its because of you. You'll be my forever missing peace...

Thank you for reading❣️
God bless youuuu....