There will be more than just us two

It hurts to be away from you.

Reyyan finally did it. She ran away. She ran away from the place she was born, grew up and the only place she ever saw except from Istanbul. She ran away from her family that lied to her, her whole life. And then she ran away from him. Her miracle, the only men she felt in love with. The only men that showed her heaven and hell at the same time. Despite all the things that happenend, she still loves her family and the place shes been all her life. And of course she still loves him, Miran.
She wanted to start a new life away from lies, revenge and drama. She went to Istanbul . It always was her dream to become a nurse. She never had the chance to follow her dreams but now its different. Now her opinion counts and not the one from the people around her.
She should be happy shouldn't she? Everything is great. She stands on her own feet, takes her own decisions and walks her own path. But despite all the good things something is missing. Something inside of her hurts and feels empty. She's afraid to close her eyes cause she knows exactly who is gonna appear. Miran,despite all the things that happened between them he is her miracle. He made her feel things she never imagined. Without him she would never have the courage to even try running away. He made her feel confident and protected. Thinking about him hurts. His shiny green eyes, with the dark hair and his voice especially when he gets jealous. Reyyan never told him but deep down she liked his intense jealousy. He was showing her how much he loved her every second they spent together. He never was afraid to show it.
But he told her himself: leave cause I don't have the strengh to do it.

Mirans View:
I can't breathe once again. She was the reason why I was finally breathing easily but she left. Without looking back she took her things and left. It should hurt less knowing that I did the same thing to her after our first night together. It must hurt less knowing she's been through this kind of feeling more than once just because of me. But it hurts, it hurts more than the bullet she gave me. It hurts more than it ever did, cause this time she really left. My old crazy personality wouldn't let her go. I would follow her wherever she goes. But I can't. I have to give her the chance to follow her dreams, to take her own decisions and finally start a new life without revenge and pain. A life that I won't destroy. No matter where she is or what she's doing nobody can take her place in my heart away.

2 weeks later:
I took all the informations I need for finally starting my Medical Studies. But i can't, the pain inside of me is eating me up. How should i start Medical classes when all I see when I try to focus is Mirans face. How am I gonna focus on studying when everything reminds me of him. Despite all the things that happened and after all the things we both lost. One thing never got lost. His place in my heart. It's still there nobody can take it away. Even if someone would try they couldn't succeed. As I'm looking around the room, memories come up once again. Valentines day. Miran and I were in Istanbul. It was the best thing that happened to us. We could finally enjoy our love and just us. Just me him and our love for each other. There was no decoration in my room at all but when I look at one place for more than two seconds I can see it. The preperation Miran did for valentines day. The room full of red balloons in a Heart shape. While beeing lost in my thoughts, i can feel his breath behind my ear. „ben seni çok seviyorum". It feels so real. As I try to get up I can feel something wet. While looking down, I realised that I was crying. I didn't even noticed it until i saw the evidence of my tears on my pillow. I love him I just love him, yes I left. But my heart didn't it stayed where it belonged. With him and my family.