Story of my Life

Always fucking Something

I took the next couple weeks or so to just be alone, not because I was feeling depressed or anything crazy. It was just to separate myself from everything. I wanted space away from Sev. I was starting to feel weird about the Andy thing so we hadn't had sex since last week.
The separation was amazing, it was refreshing to see the charming side of him from when we met. Reminded me why I like him so much. I didn't want to hide what happened in my room, but I knew it would be a mess if I told him so I decided to keep it to myself.

It was really starting to feel a lot better without all of the drama and bullshit that was happening on a daily basis. Only down side to this week is that Nino and Andy "hit it off" somehow, so he's been at our lunch table everyday. Being all sweet and romantic with Nino, even though we all know she hates him with a fiery passion.

Something about it made me sick and some days I couldn't stand being around it. I continued to think about it and I'll admit, the whole situation was pissing me off but I wasn't gonna let anything change this new drama free feeling I was becoming used to.

We were starting the first week of October and I couldn't be more excited. The spooky decorations, the horror movies the gore. It was amazing, and I couldn't wait for Halloween to come.

Nobody knows about my Halloween obsession except my mom. I'm good at hiding it, and I always have been.

                   "Kori! Hello! Earth to Kori." Tia waves her hand in my face and when I finally snapped back into reality everyone was staring at me waiting for something.

                   "Sorry, what?" I looked over the whole table again to see if I could catch myself back up but there was nothing, just Nino snickering in Andy's ear. They straightened up when they noticed I was watching them, and it truly was putting a damper on my good vibes.

After another moment of awkward silence, I just got up and left. It felt like there was no reason for me to even be at the table. I was heading towards my locker, but turned and went to the gym instead. Frustration had set in and I decided practicing my eight count could help ease me back into my drama free self, and it was working until Andy came into the gym looking for me.

                   "There you are." He slowly walked over and leaned his back against the wall to watch me. "You okay? You looked a little flustered back at the table."

He stared for a moment, with this weird parental look on his face that really only said I'm waiting. "I'm fine, just got a lot to think about." I mumbled back.

                   "Like what?" His expression changed to a smug 'I already know' look and it was really irritating me.

                   "I hate to be this person, but can you fuck off please. I just want to be by myself for a minute." I started to walk away but he called my name and sadly I turned back around.

                   "You wanna be alone a lot now that Nino and I are together, is that what has been on you're mind a lot." He half smiled as if he hit the nail on the head, and he slowly walked up to me. "Or is it that you can't stop thinking about my hands?"

I couldn't take it anymore. I snatched myself away from my thoughts and slapped him. "Actually, I've been thinking about how to you tell you that you make me so sick. Being in the same room as you makes everything in my body curl up and die a little." I watched his face dull out and it almost made me feel bad.  "I find it funny that you say you want me and hate Nino, but now your all loved up!" I didn't mean it but I liked seeing him fumble around mentally.

Part of me wanted him to say something or do something, but there was nothing. There was no grab or attempt to stop me from walking away this time, and it didn't really feel good. I know I shouldn't have said that to him, and that it makes me look like a bitter bitch but at some point you don't even wanna play the game anymore right?

As I walked back to my locker Nino, Sev, Alec and Kai were all talking in the corner. Sev waived me over but I was starting to actually feel sick, instead of joining the group, I b-lines for the bathroom and straight into a stall.

It had been 6 minutes of me holding my head above the toilet, and I was way to exhausted to get up. I slid over and leaned back against the stall wall, and before I could even pull my legs up to my chest, everything went black.

When I woke up, I was in the nurses office and school was almost over. I could smell Sev but I didn't see him, the light scent of old spice and expensive cologne that was almost so vanilla it could be a perfume was way to familiar.

As I sat up his jacket rolled down to my legs and it made me smile.

The nurse came in seconds later, and seemed surprised that I was upright. "Luck is on your side, I was just about to have the principal call for an emergency transport." He came over and handed me a cup of water and a mint.

"Do you wanna call someone for a ride?" He asked rhetorically and instantly dialed the number on file. My mom spoke to him for a moment, then he handed the phone to me.

                   "I'm at work, tell them I'm on my way to get you and I'll have your dad come pick you up." Was all she said before the phone hung up.  I explained what my mom said and handed him back the phone. 

It didn't take long for him to write the exit slip, but it did take long for me to walk home. My legs hurt and I felt super weak. When I got home I went straight to my room and closed the door, I didn't want to be noticed for the rest of the day!

I took a long cold bath to soothe the pain in my legs and stomach, then laid down on my bed. The covers felt so nice on my naked body and the smell of Sev's jacket still lingered in the air.

Sleep came quick and it was nice to get some rest, but the sound of moaning and someone being hushed was really staring to make my head pound. I groggily rolled over and opened my door, listening for the sounds that were keeping me up.

I slowly walked down the hall towards my moms room and started to feel a little angry that she didn't come pick me up, and that she lied about being at work just to get some.

I pushed the door open and when I saw Bryce fucking some woman at my moms dresser I closed the door and hobbled back to my room. I must have scared them because the sound of shuffling feet got louder and soon the front door was being opened.