I just want you

God sends human. As well as, our company, when we need them, when we be like them.
Yes, this story is about a company, about a great need.
This story is about my favourite 'Rolleigns'....

The Issue

Roman knows himself very much. He knows that he is gay. But his family members do not accept him as well. They think that the way is wrong. He was good with his beloved wife and little daughter. His family is against him. He doesn't know what to do. He just knows that he loves seth, he wants seth anyway, at any cost.

'I am not bad, I know. I-I know th-that I am doing right. I just, I just want him. I neh-need him badly', Roman cries out and says. Damn! he wants seth badly!

Roman is just blaming himself insidely. He knows that he is right. But maybe he is wrong today, he is thinking, Maybe he is not right for seth. He can't make the world better for their living, for the happiness of seth. But he is ok with that. Maybe seth will be fine with him. Maybe the people is so selfish, but they can make a world together for them. Thinking that, now roman is quite well. But he is not ok at all.

The Hurt

Seth is passing by Roman's house. Seth sees Roman. but Roman is looking so sad.'Hey babe. What happened with you?' ''The society is very bad seth. They don't want to see us together. The world is not perfect for us. U am not perfect for you. I can't accept your love but yes, I love you more than anything. I need you .....Forever'' Roman is just thinking that in his mind. He just silently tells his feelings to Seth. But he can't tell that before seth. He knows the way how seth gets hurt. But Roman is his only one, how can he hurt him.

Seth is looking at him and says, 'What're you thinking romie? Are you alright?'. 'Nah, I am fine, Roman ingnored him. 'But baby, I have lot of works to do. I will talk with you some hours later. Bye, stay well, Roman lied. Saying that, Roman goes back to his home. Seth is just looking at him. He is shocked.

Seth is walking on the road and thinking the witty moment, 'How can Romie tell me that? What's going on? What's in his mind? Does he forget me? Was he trying to ignore me? Then What is my fault?' So many questions are in Seth's mind. But no answers, He just has some tension for Roman. He knows that Roman told him a lie. Roman just trying to hide something. Maybe this is negative for seth, but this is hurtful too. Seth doesn't understand anything, 'Why he ignored me on that way? What was my fault?' He gets just hurts.. And nothing else. He can't understand what is right, what is wrong. But he is in his way.

Roman didn't have any mind to hurt seth, but yes, Seth gets hurt. Maybe for the lie or maybe for the ignore.

Bad Moment

The next day, Roman is going to his office. On his way, he is thinking about sethie. Last night, he didn't answer Roman's phone. 'Is he alright?' the last thing, Roman just tells himself. He is worried. He has just one thing in his entire life till last breath, is Seth. But now, now he doesn't know about him.

After that moment, Roman gets down to his white Glossy car. He comes for drinking a cup of coffee. He is okey with that coffee. Cause he loves the coffee that seth made for him. It is not that. But for punishment, the coffee is ok. While drinking the coffee, Roman looks behind. He is shocked, He sees that Seth is with another, another guy. But yes he knows that guy. That is Chris, who used to be with seth altime, when they were in College. Seeing that Roman feels jealousy, but hurt inside. Seth is on Chris's arms. They are laughing and looking at each-other. Seth forgets Roman. He is now with Chris. Roman is looking just. Roman tries to control his pain. But it is tears right, tears don't listen to Roman. It falls. It falls down to Roman's cheek. Yes, it shines the hurt, it shines the pain. Seth is smiling, his beautiful smile is always right for Roman, but now. Now it is bad. So bad for Roman. He knows that seth is happy now, but he can't listen to himself. Chris holds seth, tightly, closely. But not with so much love, that always Roman gives him. Roman is seeing, just seeing them. 'How happy seth is!' the last word he can say.

I am okay

Coming back to the place, Roman is just thinking about that moment. 'I know I am okey. Seth was looking so much happy with him. I know he doesn't deserve me anymore. but he should know that a bad thing moves to be right. I know I am bad for him, always, I was. He is right, right for Seth. He makes Seth happy. I don't, but he does. I need some time,'  he is just thinking that. That moment be a chain between him and sadness. He can't ignore that. But what to do, the past is Roman's last hope. But yes, he decides that he will move so far away from seth. He can't see seth with another. He decided to go another place, so far, so far that seth can not search him. He gets hurt, soo much hurt between his mind. But he is okay. He knows that He deserves pain. He deserves that. He is not right. But he can't get pains like that. He can't. But it is enough for him....