BNHA Angst

Nightmares

     A/N: short to start cause I wanted a nightmare fix with Uraraka comforting him. More to come.

     A few years after graduating from U.A. Midoriya and Uraraka were now pro hero's, and were also living together. Midoriya hated not being able to save everyone. Uraraka knew that, she also hated that. Midoriya would come home after a long day and he would just sit on the couch, not moving, not speaking. Depending on the day Uraraka might have already been home, or gets home after Midoriya. Today she was home before Midoriya.
"So Izuku, how was work?" Uraraka said hastily. "Fine." Midoriya had no emotion in his voice.
"It's almost ten, you should eat some dinner and head to bed." She spoke softly afraid to hurt him.
"Not hungry." His voice was still devoid of emotion.
"Do you want to go to bed?" She scooted closer to Midoriya and laid her hand on his shoulder.
     He only shook his head in response.Uraraka sighed and grabbed Midoriya's hand, and led him to  their bedroom. Uraraka started to get ready for bed while Midoriya just kinda took off his clothes and flopped on the bed. He didn't brush his teeth, or take a shower like he normally would. Uraraka looked at his with sympathy and got into bed herself.
"Goodnight Izuku," she gave him a quick kiss on his arm, "sweet dreams." Uraraka rolled over so she wasn't facing Midoriya's back, and fell asleep.
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"You're weak." Midoriya turned around to see the person he couldn't save today.
"T-that's not true." His voice shook with every word.
"You are, because if you were strong, I wouldn't be dead. A family wouldn't be grieving." Midoriya felt like he was being stabbed. Bile was rising in his throat. He couldn't breath, his vision was getting blurry.
"I tried! I tried as hard as I could!" Midoriya yelled back at the figure.
"Clearly you didn't try hard enough."  The figure disappeared into the abyss. Midoriya yelled for it to come back. He wanted to explain himself, he wanted to fix it. He needed to fix it.
"Shitty Deku, I should be number one hero, at least no ones died on my watch." Bakugou spat at Midoriya then disappeared.
Words started to encircle him. Getting closer and closer. Names of all the people he couldn't save, turned into the people not just the name. He could take it. He needed to throw up he had to get something out of his system.
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Midoriya woke up with a jolt, he immediately turned to the side of the bed, grabbed the trash can and threw up. He was shaking, he couldn't breath, he kept throwing up, he couldn't stop. He was sobbing in between vomiting. He felt a hand on his shoulder and nearly punch Uraraka.
"Hey, Izuku, breath, you're ok, it's ok." Uraraka pulled him into a hug.
Midoriya clung as tight as he could, sobbing into the crook of her neck.
"I-I'm so s-sorry O-ochako." Midoriya hiccuped between each word, clinging to Uraraka even harder.
"It's ok, don't apologize." Uraraka was staying composed, and making circles on Midoriya's back.
"I-I could h-have saved h-her." His hiccups we slowing and his crying had almost stopped.
"You can't save everyone Izuku. I know it's hard but you can't." Uraraka's voice was filled with sympathy
"S-she was in m-my dream." By this point he had stopped crying, just a few tears ever so often.
"She wasn't real, you know this. It was just a dream." Midoriya nodded his head, still clinging to Uraraka as if when he'd let go he'd die.
"I just feel b-bad." Midoriya now spoke just above a whisper.
"I know you do. But we have to be move on and save other people. So more don't die." As she spoke she pulled away and grabbed his face and looked directly into his eyes.
Izuku only nodded, he didn't want to talk anymore.
"Let's try and get back to bed, ok?" Uraraka Held onto Izuku as they tried to drift of to sleep.