Hayes Grier Likes Me

Chapter 2

OMG!!!! I can't believe this is happening! It can't be this way not now, not ever. OMG i have to help I have to do something. How can me and James help, I cannot think og anything my mind is blown and nothing seems to be in there at tthe moment. My life is over, but why did this have to happen to me and my family? Not that I want it to happen to anyone else's but this is bad, this is really bad, and i know some people have is worse but everyone feels like this when a massive bombshell is dropped and the explosion it made may never ever be resolved. Sometimes it is but it takes months, it could even take years. 

I will be strongg, I have to be strong for my family, James and expescially my Mum. I will do whatever I can to help out or do anything really. My mum just needs to be calm because being stressed will not help the situation. From the day she told us my hands have been sweating and the lest of my body has been sweaty and it will not stop, and it's really annoying me. I always have to be doing something like, picking my nails, chewing my lips, cracking my nuckles over and over again. I've been stuck in my room for almost a whole day, my friends have come to visit to see if I'm okaay but I just tell Mum to tell them i don't want to see them. It isn't that I don't want to see just them, I don't want to see anyone. When James comes into my room to see if I'm okayI tell him to go away. I even sometimes don't want to see my Mum. 

Sometimes I wonder how this could of happened.  It just seems impossible to happen and at a young age. I always seem to be crying and I can't stop myself, when I tell myself to stop it just makes me cry harder and harder until I fall asleep. I sometimes hear James and Mum crying aswell, but not as much me. This isn't even happening to me and I'm crying harder then anyone. Why? My Mum should be the one balling her eyes out. I don't know why she isn't. Maybe she is keeping it in just to make herslef look tough in front of me and my brother, but she has to know that she can let it our, it's okay. She can't hold her feelings inside of her because one day they will just all come out at once and then who nows what could happen, she could just never want to talk to anyone again and then I will have no mum or  dad.