I don't know why I did it . Nipsey was my first and I always thought that he would be my last . He treated me so wrong and yet I feel bad for sleeping with another man . Now I feel stupid and foolish because clearly this is what he wanted , he wanted me to show him I wasn't loyal to him . I will have to tell him one day , but not when I see him at court .....
2weeks later ....
Cassie: Why Have You been mia ? This is the time we should be together ... Lauren : Cassie you wouldn't believe what I did , and what the outcome is ... I'm to embraced to talk about it I'll see you tmr at court .
—- The next day —-
*entering courtroom *
Cassie : So what did you have to tell me ? Lauren : I'll tell you after court , we need a fresh head going in here ...
* I walked inside the court room and when I looked to my left I saw Nipsey , I automatically broke down crying . Not at that fact he was in jail, but at the fact that I did him dirty , But he pushed me away and he wanted this for us . Why ??? Why is this happening to me ? Sometimes I wish I would've just let Cassie do you her that day .*
Cassie : Lauren , calm down be strong you got this baby .
Lauren : thanks Cassie , but you wouldn't even understand how hard it is to be strong when you're on your own
Cassie : Lauren , did you forget ? I'm the definition of going through it . That's why we're best friends , but we can talk later Trial is about the start....
Attorney : My client is continuing to fight the case , and with they're being no evidence or witnesses proven , we should discuss his release .
Judge : Well it is settled then , Court Adjourned.
Nipsey ( yelling across the court room ) - This is for me.
Lauren : As long as you did it baby , I love you ——
Lauren : okay Cassie you better not say nothing .
Cassie : what is it bitch tell me ?
Lauren : I had sex with T.I two weeks ago after Nipsey told me all that shit . And I've been feeling sick , throwing up , can't eat , out of breath . I think I'm pregnant .
Cassie : oh my god !! I'm going to be a godmama .
Lauren : No you're not . I'm not keeping this baby.
Cassie : yes you are . you slipped up , made a mistake . I'm pretty sure he did the same when you were locked up , matter fact I know for a fact he had to . And I bet it was his baby mama .
Lauren : you're right , but I'm not him and two wrongs don't make a right . I was suppose to hold him down , have something ready for him when he come home , but instead when he comes home I'll be pregnant with another mans baby .
Cassie : you deserve this . do this for yourself . T.I is a good man with a family already and he will be a great father to your baby . And if you choose for him not to be in his life , Nipsey will be a good father . Either way you have a good support system . Take advantage of your situation .
Lauren : Well Nipsey's final court day will be in a couple weeks and then he'll be coming home . I'll have everything figured out by then . But, I did set up a doctors appointment and it's tommrow so I need to make up my mind if I'm keeping it or not .
——— The Next Day——-
Doctor Rose : Lauren , did you make a descion yet ?
Lauren : Yes—
Nurse Amber : not to be rude and sorry for cutting you off I just thought you would want to see your baby before making any final descions .
Doctor Rose : Well Ms.Lauren is that okay with you ?
Lauren : yes , that's fine ...
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Doctor Rose : well I'll give you a minute.
Nurse Amber : Do you need anything ? I'll leave to give you a minute
Lauren : Why did you do that ?
Nurse Amber : do what ?
Lauren : suggest that I saw my baby before making any descions .
Nurse Amber : Because I was you . I see my whole life story sitting in front of me right now . I had a man and oh was he perfect , well too me . Let's just say he had a name for himself in the streets , he got locked up and he wanted me to live my life begged me for years , but I insisted on holding him down . Which I did , but I slipped up and met an old friend at a party down in the hills . I'll never forget how it felt so good , in the moment everything was perfect . I didn't have a care in the world , I was free . Until the next day , I got a call from the Jail my man was in and they gave me a date , he was coming home April 3rd . I was excited I haven't been able to touch my man since my 16th birthday , the night he got locked up . But , little did I know I had a baby baking in the oven . He would've been coming home to another mans baby , it would've broke his heart . So I killed my baby . Which is the worst thing I ever could've did . Do you know that the nigga I waisted my prime years for had been telling me to live my life because the night before he got locked up , the night before my birthday he fucked two bitches & both got pregnant . Ain't that bout a bitch . But, can I be mad at him ? He did love me , that I know for a fact . And I did love him , well I do love him . He told me to live my life so that when he came home he didn't have to face me and tell me about the kids , he thought I would've moved on , but I didn't . He pushed me away to protect me , I killed my baby to protect me . And the worst part about my whole story is that I never had a chance to have a baby after that , I can't have children . That baby was my only chance , my golden child . My true purpose in life was to be the mother to that baby girl or boy . And every night I pray , I pray that my little angel knows that mommy is sorry and loves you very very much ❤️
Lauren : oh my god .
Nurse Amber : Oh no . Don't cry baby , you got this . You know what to do now .
Lauren : Wair Nurse Amber , what happened to them ?
Nurse Amber : The father of my Angel is Married with kids .
Lauren : and your man ?
Nurse Amber : He is resting . May god continue to bless his soul .
*Door opens *
Doctor Rose : have you made a choice ?
Lauren : I looked over to Nurse Amber and whispered *thank you * then I answered , YES IM GOING TO KEEP THE BABY .
Doctor Rose : okay. go out to the desk and make a follow up appointment , congratulations on your baby Ma'am .
