I Knew I Loved You the Moment I Saw You

Chapter 1

Chapter 1
Jens POV
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I lay here listening to the steady rhythm of Josh's breathing. I have been laying awake for hours. In just four more hours Josh will be leaving for a plane flight to New York to visit his mother who just got out of surgery. He will be gone for 4 weeks. I will be alone without my Joshy for 4 weeks. My breathing gets heavy, which apparently wakes Josh up, because he looks at me with those big hazel eyes that could melt even the bitterest of people. "What's wrong, baby?" He gives me a worried look. Suddenly I feel hot tears running down my cheeks. "I'm going to miss you too much. What if your plane crashes? What if you get sick while you are there? What if there is a tsunami while you are there?" He chuckles "What?" I ask still thinking of all the possibilities. "Tsunami?" He asks. "Jennifer, you are over thinking this. It's 4 weeks. I'll be fine. I would take you with me but you have to watch Pippi and look after the house and everything." He says, making it sound a lot less worrying then it actually is. "Josh who's going to cuddle with me on the movie nights? Pippi? Pippi can't wrap me into his arms and rub he's fingers along my back when a scary part comes. Pippi can't carry me to bed when I fall asleep after the fourth movie we watch. Pippi can't put me into my favorite pajamas without waking me, or at all for that matter. And who's going to bring me breakfast in the morning? I can make myself breakfast, but I can't write 'I love you with all of my heart. -Joshy' in whipped cream on my pancakes. And who's going to be my gym buddy? Who's going to shield me from the paparazzi?" Tears keep rolling off of my face. Josh says nothing. He knows words are not necessary. He just takes his thumb and rubs it across my cheeks, wiping the tears from my face. He sits up in bed and pulls me closer. He starts running his fingers up and down my spine forcing my eyes to shut.