My Life

This Is Me

Well, I'm a girl. Also my names not really Nyuu but it's Marcela.
Thing with me is I'm not the normal teenage girl. No I'm the girl who is quite, wears long sleeves and just can't talk cause she's so shy. I don't want pity or attention, I just want someone who can understand. So I feel like your first guess is " I bet this girls cuts, or is emo." Well I'm not gonna say neither because I just don't wanna answer. People ask me alot, why are you so sad? Well 1. My whole life is well a giant mess. Lies, sadness and most of all betrayal. My whole side of my dads family wants me to die, get pregnant even go to jail. They wanna see my fail, they smile when I do something wrong, a mistake. It hurts because you can't talk to any of them, so u keep it all bottled inside. And for me that's fine for others that's bad. I stopped caring long time ago after I found out the truth. After I can't trust people, they end up hurting you. Thing with me is I can't be happy, I try and try but when I am something terrible has to happen. So I gave up on happiness. Why I'm making this is because not only do I want you guys to know me but I want you guys to know, your not alone. I suffer from depression,OCD, anxiety and so on. I don't care what you look like. I don't judge
because judging is the most mean thing you could do. Pointing out someone's flaws... It doesn't help them, in fact It makes them feel worse. I know I don't have it bad, I have a wonderful big brother, loving parents and a few friends but my life is not perfect, having a close sick cousin be taken away from you and you can't do anything but cry, having one side of your whole family hate you and reject you and being judged all day, also try to be "fine" is not the best thing in the world. What I'm trying To say is. I know I don't have that bad of a life. As for those people that do, stay strong. You guys are amazing. Putting on a fake smile walking threw school, shrugging off the insults, the judgement, that a hard thing to do. But in the end everything's going to ok because you can do it.
So Love,Laugh,live <3