𝐒𝐥𝐢𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐝 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐦𝐨𝐧𝐝 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞 | ↪ˢᵉᵛᵉⁿᵗᵉᵉⁿ

❝─𝚜𝚌𝚊𝚛𝚜 𝚝𝚘 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚋𝚎𝚊𝚞𝚝𝚒𝚏𝚞𝚕❞

Members: S.Coups, Jeonghan
Ship: Jeongcheol
Words: 475
Song: Seventeen - Fallin Flower
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Dear Jeonghan,

Do you remember the first time we kissed?

Your blond tangled hair didn't frame your face that well, some locks stuck on your forehead, the other ones soaked your shoulders, but this torrential rain was nothing compared to the one which fell from your eyes. You jumped in my arms, you kissed me in public, in front of all these people. All the despair and the hatred you kept for a while just made your heart explode. You were broken. I could feel it with your strong embrace, your nails were deeply driven into my back, your unstoppable tears staining my sweatshirt. You fell on the floor, so I hugged you to show you that no matter what this fucking world can make us, we were free, we were together, just young forever.

A few days later, this same person was sitting on my thighs, treating on me his body and his soul, biting my lips, moving his pelvis against mine, slowly surrendering himself in the most addictive capital sin. All you needed was love, this fragility showed through your gestures, you sigh, your groans. Jeonghan, will you ever stop being sad? We both know this stupid question shouldn't exist.

Your hair reflected your state of mind: it was a whole mess. I put my hand into it, you pressed my fingers. This gesture was innocent, you wanted it to be violent. I always think about the same question since you looked at me like your soul perspired calls for help: Jeonghan, the world was that violent with you?

You called it you confident, the scientist called it severe depression. This paralyzing sluggishness moves you away from me, I was just a spectator, watching you slowly destroying your joy, your smile, your feelings, your mind, your identity. Destroying yourself.

Remember when you tried to kill yourself by letting your veins bleeding in your bath. I made you come out of it, and for once since you lived with me, I cried. I knew you needed emotional support, but I couldn’t take it anymore. 

You watched me with those familiar empty eyes. Jeonghan, had you died inside? I don't think this question needs an answer.

I know it may be painful for you to remember this difficult period, but I need you to know the man you've become, Jeonghan. With his qualities, his faults, his past, and his future. Be proud of your scars, be proud of your life, of the decision that made your life. There are no scars to your beautiful, Jeonghan. Just like you the way you are. And if you don't, just remember that I do. 

I want to tell you that no matter the difficulties you go through in your life, I’m here, 

That you did well, 
That I love you, 
That I'll hug you tightly. 

I love you, 

Choi Seungcheol. 

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❝So, even if this OS was really short, I hope you enjoyed it.❞

❝It's not in my habits to write stories in English because it isn't my native language, so I'd like to thank Dinosaur-Bucket for her correction ^^❞

❝Most of the short stories I write are inspired by songs, and their translation are kinda long to make, so I won't publish really regularly on this account because I first need to end my stories before translating them.❞

❝I wish you all a good day!❞

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