Can You Hear Me?

Can Anybody Hear Me?

Can anybody hear me?

Do my muffled cries fall upon deaf

ears? Are your headphones blaring too loud to get a second of your attention?

Is your brain just occupied with selfish or meaningless thoughts?

Can anyone see me?
Are your eyes wide shut sealed tight?
Are you seeing me with blinded blurred vision? Or just turning a blind eye to my pain?
Can you notice me?

Do I have to get your attention by ending it all right in front of you? Should I start sending screenshots to you of bridges I want to jump off of? Should I send you pictures of knives stained with my blood? Will that wake up from the slumber of self-absorption?

Maybe if I mail the receipts of ropes I've been looking at as of late Maybe the crackling and unfolding crumpling of the paper will make you look my way!
maybe it will have you ask the undoubted question if I'm OK?!

Do I even matter to anyone any more or have I burdened you all with my unhealthy ways of life?

  I'm screaming at the to of my lungs yet I fall upon deaf ears can anyone hear me?

Maybe you’ll hear me if I publicize by death If I go live and shoot myself right in the forehead may be the temple. Perhaps if I get razor blades and slice my wrists and let the blood run cold until it fills up my bath and further empties my soul. Then will you look? How about if  I get a long thick rope and hang myself from a tree or a ceiling fan as it propels rapidly would you see me then? Well, at least I’d feel something.

Has it dawned on you to ask me the simple question if I'm ok today? Maybe that would help me with a better tomorrow, but as of late I've been feeling like I don't want a tomorrow I don't want anything I'm numb. Does anyone care? Everyone seems to be so wrapped up in their own little fantasy lands about celebrities and what they're doing even though those people don't care and here I stand with a bleeding heart crying in pain and yet I’m.
Looks like my fingers will be doing more than wiping tears from my pail dampened skin.

It looks like they will be ending my life tonight. since no one cares and I seem to be none existent to my so-called friends I seem to be fine to my family a lie I would have hoped they caught on to but, everyone seems too busy to notice my undying whimpers for help. The one I want to ask if I’m ok ignores me taunts me I’m in a rage I’m in a frenzy  I’m in torment I’m in unbearable tremendous pain everyone needs someone but me I have no one that will stop me from diving into those icy waters.

No one to mend the brokenness inside me Nobody I am nobody I want to live no more no! would anyone care if they found me in a bathroom on the floor or would I be made a  Spectacle of would I be a joke to everyone?  No one wants me they use me they, tease me No one understands me but maybe if I died they would or would I even be noticed? Would anyone cry for me Would someone anyone help me I’m crying out while I still have hope…..