Hero
I keep walking back and forth around the big hallway waiting for Catarina to come home. Melanie texted her slut friend after we were done and Catarina is supposed to be here any minute. I am making up the words I'm gonna tell her and how on a nice way I should tell her that I slept with another woman. The only conclusion I got now is that "Hey, I fucked with another woman so you won't get expelled" isn't really the best option. Oh dammit, Catarina, please come here and make me stop overthinking. Just in that moment, like she read my mind, the door opens and finally reveals the beautiful brown eyes I wanted to see the whole day. She looks different tho, her hair is messier, her bag is almost falling from her shoulders and I just don't see that glow and the wave of happiness when she enters the door as I used to be blessed with for the past few weeks. "Hey, I am so glad you are finally home" I walk to her, but when she looks up to me her eyes are red and watery and dry tears are all over her face. My heart breaks immediately. "What's wrong?" I ask worried and she looks at me with pain, fear and a lot of broken pieces of something that is called happiness, in her eyes. I can see every single feelings, every single emotion in her eyes even through her glasses.
"What is wrong?? You are seriously asking me what is wrong?? I was kept in school for three extra hours and then when I finally exited that building I get a wonderful news that my boyfriend slept with another girl while I almost got expelled!" She says through the tears with her voice breaking a bit. "I did that to save you, because of her you got in trouble so I did that only to save you" I try to grab her hands, but she moves them away. "Mhm of course! Melanie came to me and said 'hey, your boyfriend just fucked me so well, he was deep and rough just like I love it!" She yells crying and a lot of guilt fills my body. I mean, I had to do that? I needed to save her, I would be selfish if I didn't, I just thought she'd have a little respect and realization for it. "I'm sorry!! But it wasn't like that, I didn't moan, I didn't touch her, I didn't even cum! All I wanted is to help you! I didn't want to sleep with her! I actually hate her so much, she ruined my life!" I say in a begging tone for on the edge of my tears for her to believe me, but she just shakes her head and walks past me to the stairs. "I'm sick of this shit, I don't trust anyone anymore" she mumbles underneath her breath, but I still manage to hear it. "Where are you going?" I walk behind her with some tears of fear in my eyes. "I'm leaving, far far away from everything and everyone" she gets in her room and starts throwing her stuff in her suitcase a bit aggressively. And then I thought we can work this out. "No, Catarina, please, just let me explain" I try to grab her hand again, but she moves away and her hand ends up slapping my cheek leaving me completely shocked. "Enough!" she yells as she leaves the house in the speed of light.
I let my back slip down the cold wall as more and more uncontrolled tears fall down my face. I never experienced a heartbreak, yet, I was never in love. Everything until her, until I met my Juliet, in an totally unexpected situation. I was a dick to everyone that day, yet, I was blessed by a beautiful angel who changed my whole life and changed the complete way I look at everything else. She brought the light, the colour and the meaning to my life and now as I'm processing that she is almost gone from my life, everything she brought into it is slowly disappearing. I am glad after everything I still managed to help her forget about Chad at least for a bit and if I really made her happier than, I am happy too. But, not, she is not gone, she will be back, she'll live here again, she'll be mine again and we will be happy, just like we used to be. I want her. I need Mark my words.
