Unrequited.

.Première rencontre.

Though I have criticised you,
It wasn't like that before.
When it all started.
When we met.
You fell into my life when I was clueless to emotions.

When I saw you in middle school,
I was instantly attracted to you being you.
Not like those love at first sight movies.
I was curious.
I wanted to know what type of person you were.
I remember watching you from far and thinking :
"wow, how can someone be possibly so comfortable around others ?"

At that time I was labelled as the cute shy girl.
Which was just because I was insecure, introverted and not strong enough to deal with my social anxiety.
Seeing you laughing and being close to people starting conversations with them even if you didn't know them was...so inspiring
You inspired me.
You were someone I aspired to be.

Then I don't exactly remember when but we started talking, it slowly bloomed between us somehow.
We both liked watching anime.
That instantly brought us close.
I liked how there never was anything awkward between us because you made me feel comfortable and I felt good around you, like really good.
We got closer, sat next to each other in Latin class for years.
I can never forget the little stars in your eyes. When you were talking passionately about something, it was all I saw.
Giggling and relating to one other.
I am thankful for those times.

I saw you as an almost best friend.
You had your own bffs.
And I had my own ones.
Which was great.
We had no explanation to do to each other because we were having this relationship where we felt free.
No restrictions no constrains no jealousy.
In class we were unstoppable.
Which was funny because it was so so so unlike me.
Sitting on the first row.
We used to talk to the point where the teacher would be angry at us.
We laughed about it.
Good times.
We were so stuck to each other but outside Latin and German class ; we never really were seen to be close friends... at least for middle school.