9. He is a human being Elena

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Pov Elena When I opened my eyes, the first thing I saw was the white known ceiling

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Pov Elena
When I opened my eyes, the first thing I saw was the white known ceiling. I frowned and turned around. What had happen? Lorenzo was laying next to me, snoring lightly. A small smile crept on my face while admiring his handsome features. The memories of last night flashed back and I shivered slightly. Did he really get through all of that to help me? At the end of the day, it did help me to move on. Everything was just a mess and I really didn't know what to think anymore. I was for sure done with crying for Lev, that bastard didn't deserve anything. Dimitri deserved an apologize after the mess I made yesterday. I scratched my head out of frustration. I still didn't like him, but he didn't deserve to get hate for something he didn't do.

Lorenzo his calm state made me calm too. I know that he only wished the best for me and that he didn't mean any harm. I snuggled closer to him and felt his arm around my waist. We used to sleep like this when we were young. I always found an excuse and at the end he would let me join him. I always liked his warm body, it made me feel safe and loved.

Lorenzo was there for me when no one else was. He looked after me, even when my own parents couldn't. He didn't deserve my hate. I could not handle losing anyone else anymore. I have already lost to many people I cared about. My eyes shut down again and before I even realized, his warmth helped me fall back into sleep.

I woke up a couple days later in an empty bed. My eyes shut down again, not caring about school or the company. The warmth and cosiness didn't last long. Before I could fall back to sleep for the second time this morning, my door swung open which caused me to growl irritated. I didn't even bother to look who it was, caring too much about the warmth of my bed right now. I pulled my blanket above my head with the hope that the person would get the signal and leave me in peace. I heard some footsteps before my bed sunk in and somebody laid down next to me. '' I know you don't want to, but please wake up''

His voice sounded worried. I loved my sleep but hearing his voice like this made my heart ache. I sighed irritated before opening my eyes and kicking the blanket down with my feet, so that my face becomes visible again. I turned around so that I could look at his handsome face. '' What is it?''

'' Are you okay?''

Lorenzo his eyes were dull, lost in his own thoughts. I nodded with a forced smile on my face.

' I don't care about what happened Lo. You did what you had to do and thank you, thank you for caring'' I whispered at him. I didn't want him to feel guilty or anything. I just wanted to forget these past days. He slowly nodded and placed his big hand on my cheek, gently moving his fingers up and down.

'' Can we forget about Lèv? Please'' I pleaded.

'' Yes'' he answered with a small smile on his lips.

'' I want to apologize to Dimitri, for you know, yesterday'' I mumbled. I hated this guilty feeling and I would do everything to get over it. A little sigh left his lips, but I smiled, knowing that he would be okay with it.

'' Dimitri did call today''

Remember yesterday makes me embarrassed, but I had to face him some day. I choose to leave my comments for myself, giving him the signal that he could continue.

'' He called last night. He really feels bad about what happened El'' he sighed.

'' He doesn't need to pity me; I am used to that remember?'' I joked lightly but he didn't take any of it. His face turned into stone cold, which made me look away.

'' Don't joke about it ever again'' he mumbled sternly, which made me nod.

'' He apologized for what happened. He also told me about some kind of exercise? You don't have to do the exercise if you want. He said that he would talk with Jessica so that you could walk around with her for a day whenever you wanted to, ''

Turning 22 soon, means taking responsibilities and doing things that are out of you confront zone. I know that I will probably hate myself for going there, but I needed to apologize, and I needed those points.

'' I will do the exercise with him if he still wants it though. If we keep it professional and don't talk about anything personal related to Lèv, I am fine with doing what I was supposed to do.''

'' Are you sure?''

'' Yes Lorenzo, I am'' I whispered at him. He gave me a warm smile before standing up, leaving me all cold again.

'' I will let him know. Maybe tomorrow?'

'' Today if that's okay''

'' You need to rest El'' Lorenzo said worried, but I refused. I don't want to lay in bed all day.

'' I am fine'' I reassured him.

I just want to end this as quick as possible. If that means that I must face him while being tired as f^ck and being in an emotional mess, then so be it. Lorenzo left the room without saying anything else. I stood up after he shut my door and stretched my arms out. I grabbed my phone and walk downstairs, after making a messy burn with my hair.

Downstairs I found my way too the kitchen and take place on the kitchen table. '' Good morning'' I mumbled and put a smile on my face. My mum put a cup Thea in front of me, which I gladly accept. She planted a sweet kiss on my forehead, which made me smile and roll my eyes at the same time. I knew that she was scared, but I wasn't going back to those days.

'' I called with Dimitri; he is fine whenever you want''

''Okay, I will go after breakie'' I mumbled more to myself than anybody else. '' Are you sure?'' dad asked. '' I need those points'' I smiled at him. This was more than just the points, but they didn't need to know that. I knew that he too was worried that I would have a breakdown again, but I would not this time. Over the years I grew up into this woman and I didn't plan on going back to that dark place. Lorenzo his phone rang, and he apologized before standing up and leaving the kitchen. He never called with someone when we are around, neither did I. It was awkward when you are calling while people keep quiet for you.

After eating some fruit and drinking my Thea, I made my way to my bedroom. I look surprised at Lorenzo, who was perfectly laying down on my bed. '' What are you doing here?'' I asked questioned while walking to my closet. I needed to find something to wear. '' Are you sure about this?'' he asked again which makes me roll my eyes. '' Lorenzo, what happened the last time won't happen again. Things changed; I need to follow my daily life if I don't want to end up their again'' I explain while scanning the content of my closet. '' Dimitri is worrying'' he mumbled which makes me furrow my eyes. '' Why would he worry? We barely know each other''

'' He is a human being Elena, he feels guilty''

'' Well, he should not be'' I mumbled.

'' Does he know about my little thing last night?''

'I only told him that you felt a bit sick'' 

I nodded slowly, still concentrated on my clothes. 

'' Just be careful okay?''

'' Yes sir'' I respond sarcastically.


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